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Blog entries by sunshine44
I had some not so great weeks a bit ago. Its funny how things work like that. You come to your edge....and when you truly let go, the edge seems to many times, provide new turf. New life. Beginnings you didn't see possible. If you stay looking with your head over your shoulder at what...
"Mama take this badge off of me
I can't use it anymore
It's getting dark too dark to see
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Mama put my...
"Grandma, I'm tired. So tired of this life..."
"Take your tiredness, my child, and wrap it around yourself. Like a blanket in the cold winter months. Tiredness comes to make you a nest, to bring you to wear comfortable clothes, to make you sink into its warm embrace. I invite you to stay within...
I've always liked using my hands. I've been called a jill of all trades. I wouldn't say i'm specifically into one thing but i like to try many different creative processes. In 2009, when i was a bartender, i was also getting on ladders before work and painting the building, ha!
So, in 2016, i...
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My...
Out on the sea we'd be forgiven
Our bodies stopped the spirit leaving
Wouldn't you like to know how far you've got left to go
Somebody's child
Nobody made you
It's not what you stole, it's what they gave you
In or out, you go
In your silence, your soul
Would you rather go unwilling?
The heart...
Today's entry is to share this with anyone that feels this is for them, reminders of how to simplify life ...enjoy.
~"Change the way you think about strength.
Aren’t the physically and mentally strong those who can bend and adapt to life—especially as we age?
The more you think in rigid...
I remember it was 2008 and i was walking down an aisle in my favorite library. My 4 year old close in tow holding his trains and choo choo books. And all of a sudden a book jumped out at me, i can still see it. Does this ever happen to you? This happens to me...more often than not. It was a book...
Sometimes,
you have to exist in the space
of not feeling much hope
for a little while...
or a long while.
Getting comfortable in this space
is part of my survival strategy.
If i don't fight it,
then there is nothing to do.
To save.
To push.
To be.
To heal.
Sometimes, i am just broken
with no...
Its a dance party. We need it. The world needs it. Whether you are in bed....or sitting...or standing...
shake it like a polaroid picture phoenix rising!
(Y'all don't want to hear me, you just want to dance)
Transdermal Part 2:
I am going to do some copying and pasting of what i wrote on PR in responses to posts.
There are MANY ways to go about this. I have found through research that approximately 70% is being absorbed into blood stream...varies on what it is, density, evaporation etc. This is...
Happy day of LOVE Phoenix Rising community!
You are SO loved :heart:
Give yourself a big gentle bear hug to remember this today.
This...is probably one of the reasons i began this blog....and i am finally getting around to writing about it. I am not certain how i will section this up but it will be in multiple parts as i've been extensively experimenting in this area. Please remember my situation is severe, i've had very...
Its been an intense new moon for me.
Sharing this in case it brings even a moment of relief for anyone else in need tonight.
Twenty degrees of solitude
Twenty degrees in all
All the dancing kings & wives
Assembled in the hall
Lost is a long & lonely time
Fairy Sybil flying
All along the all...
First, i don't need to explain much why i'm posting an energy recalibration video after my last blog :lol:
Next, i want to tell a magical story about my tulip tree. WE have this giant tulip tree in the front yard. She was hit by a tornado before we moved in 8 years ago. Shes been mangled but...
Many things happening in Sunshine's world these days. Where to start?
Today my medical advocate came over and we went over notes (as i could) for 1 1/2 hours. Then i went into a ptsd episode and dissacociated fairly hard...but i brought myself back...somehow, someway and withing a few hours was...
You can maybe relate. Or maybe not.
Over the past 4 years, most people have fallen out of my life.
Its truly like i went missing in so many ways.
The last time i took my son to boyscouts...gone.
Never seeing those parents i was friends with again.
My daughters mommy and toddler library...
Well, i've been meaning to write this this week and today is fitting since Thich Nhat Hanh transitioned today.
I have felt a bit of the suffering and sadness in the world this week. I am sure many of you can relate. These times we are living in are so epic and take a new level to remain...
Today, is the full wolf moon. It is actually peaking just about to the minute right now (which was not timed, haha). If you are anything like me, you probably feel full (and new) moons to some extent. Many of us are so out of tune with the cycles and rhythms of nature, that we at first think...
Tonight, i am dreaming i am time traveling to 1968 and eating cherry pie, french fries and a peach milkshake at a soda counter. Simple pleasures! :)
I am going to eat the whole world when i can again one sweet day! :cake: :heart: