Its certainly healing to use your voice at times and especially when you live in a world where few want to be bothered with your voice.
Yes, people can be jerks.
On the internet is no exception,
but do i allow it to overrule me?
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This past Sunday, we were all winding down in my town around 8:30 pm when unfortunate events took place. A friend texted me and mentioned she smelled gas and was considering calling our gas company or 911. I encouraged her to do so. Then, it dawned on me approximately a half hour earlier i saw a quick post from a cousin about a half hour west of me of what is that smell. And a post from a town police department 25 minutes EAST of me of a gas leak.
It was a very strange situation.
My brain tried to quickly gather information as she texted me and understand how all 3 people within 1 hour were smelling....gas. I then decided to get up and get water, whcih isn't easy for me. It has to be well orchestrated. As i enter the kitchen, i began smelling....intense gas. I rolled my wheelchair into the hallway....gas. My heart began beating quickly. I am not stable or mobile and quite unable to exit my house in a situation like this. I would require assistance and in the past, my husband has proven...not so gentle, as he absolutely has not been taught how to handle the body of someone who has multiple brain, breathing, neuro and other issues. And hes a little low on empathy. So, its a last resort only situation. He would probably lay me in the yard but then leave because he literally cannot handle being in charge of someone disabled to the extent i am.
So, my wheels were turning. Trying to figure out where all my kids were located. Then...it dawned on me ...again....this is outside even stronger. There is no escaping this. So, i laid back down, organs rock hard and other symptoms, i'd extended myself beyond what i could and this was just getting started.
The smell of rotten eggs, sulfur gas began rolling in...closed windows. I called for my husband. He was outside. When he came in he was in denial...until he could no longer be. I called my friend, a former EMT asking her what she was doing. She was speechless. I felt my hands and feet began to go numb but not from a normal panic attack. We began desperately scrolling fb as quick as possible. Post after post of people incredibly freaked out saying something is very wrong, etc.
It felt like a bad movie. Everyone was quickly deducting gas could not do this over 4 counties, FOUR counties so quickly. Hundreds of people overwhelmed 911. They told people to stop calling. Stay indoors and close windows. That it was a gas leak and was being looked into. No other info.
Workers from a local BP plant began leaking via social media that they were just evacuated and let people know the two chemicals leaked. So, my friend decided to look one up....not great news but that most people survive after inhaling given sickness can and usually does occur. We are trying to base this off of calculations local neighbors etc are self testing in yards and houses. None of us really know. Officials quiet.
So, i laid here and my daughter crawled on me and for her sake, i had to remain really calm. For a flash, i imagined mothers and children in concentration camps. I tried hard to tell her we were going to be ok and this would pass as i was vibrating and mildly shaking. Abdomen distended. Nausea creeping in. Lungs starting to prickle and burn.
And i prayed. I prayed God wouldn't allow my entire upper portion of state, to go out this way. Not by the corrupt BP.
After 3 hours, the smell began to go away. The poisoning.
I begged my husband at one point to please drive us away, even though no one has attempted to get me in a car for years. I'm quite compromised. He didn't think it was worth it an there was no escaping it unless you drove 60-90 miles away and even that we weren't sure. We truly didn't know if this came from the air or the ground...or what.
Thank God my children were ok. Each adult i spoke to, family or neighbor had either a headache or nausea or combination of both. Most of us had a chemical taste in mouth for 48 hours. Food and water tasted strange. We all tried to help each other remain calm as we didn't know to what level it would reach. 1 hour of sleep. That night my lungs burned. Felt like a rash inside of them. So much mucous. Coughing all overnight. 1 hour of sleep. I tried water and raw honey but not much relief. I began to run some frequency programs on my lungs and finally experienced some relief in less coughing, burning and mucous and was able to sleep an hour.
It felt like a bad nightmare. A bad dystopian nightmare.
To make matters worse, all officials are mostly mum, even our local huge non profit organization that speaks out about catastrophes with chemicals...said not one comment.
I was so angry. Our air quality inched to 200. Each police department gave different answers and scenarios. The emergency activation system was never activated in time. A little girl experienced acid burns after she went outside in rain, whole families inside nebulizing all week. So many irritated lungs. I used my first nebulizer Tuesday. Entire box stores evacuated and restaurants as people got sick in parking lots.
I contacted our local BP where this leak (we are now told by officials) occurred. The man that answered said he didn't know what i was talking about when i asked for more information on the chemicals leaked. He gave me to a branch in our town that went straight to vmail.
People were shocked. Stunned. The headline in Chicago Tribune was about how our air levels have been tested and are fine and >BP is happy to announce no injuries. Thats it. People are furious...but few do anything.
A friend put me in touch with a reporter and i let him know what occurred and he happened to be one of the guys that broke open the Flint, Michigan water case. I was interviewed and he used quite a bit of what i gave him for his segment.
I will share it here.
If you pray, please send healing clean energy to our area. Beautiful healing cleaning energy to our air, food water and wildlife. Something happened. The birds are mostly quiet.
Please humanity, please wake up, in time.
****if you are familiar with gas masks and have a affordable recommedation for families, please let me know.
“And it’s right outside your door, now testify..”