That's how I feel. Like this spirit in chains. I want to do so much, and I can't.
Two people I follow on Youtube were talking this week about how frustrating this disease is because you push and you push and then you crash and can't do anything. And then you get upset and depressed because you can't do anything. And it's like this circle with no end. The second you feel better, you have to push to do all the things you couldn't do because you crashed. And then you crash again.
I just feel so benched. Like someone has forced me to stop playing the game of life and put me on the bench. And I'm not allowed to get up and do anything.
There are just so many things in life that I want to do. And instead, I'm stuck sick unable to do much of anything at all. And I feel like my body is just not enough to contain my spirit. It's like taking a brilliant white light and shoving it into a tiny dark bottle. It doesn't work.
I feel held back from life, from everything. No escape, just a spirit in chains.
Two people I follow on Youtube were talking this week about how frustrating this disease is because you push and you push and then you crash and can't do anything. And then you get upset and depressed because you can't do anything. And it's like this circle with no end. The second you feel better, you have to push to do all the things you couldn't do because you crashed. And then you crash again.
I just feel so benched. Like someone has forced me to stop playing the game of life and put me on the bench. And I'm not allowed to get up and do anything.
There are just so many things in life that I want to do. And instead, I'm stuck sick unable to do much of anything at all. And I feel like my body is just not enough to contain my spirit. It's like taking a brilliant white light and shoving it into a tiny dark bottle. It doesn't work.
I feel held back from life, from everything. No escape, just a spirit in chains.