I'm already in severe screaming agony, and tomorrow, I have to be at a dinner with friends and then they want me to go over to one of their houses after that. And I just want to die. I don't know how I'm gonna do it. I feel like I wish I could cancel Christmas because the pain is NOT worth it. I'll go for the dinner, but I might have to say no to the visiting. I think the dinner with the crowd of loud people is gonna kill me off. I used to love Christmas and visiting. Now, it's like painful horror from hell and I can't take my pain meds cause I'll fall asleep on them all.