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I have a vague knowledge of it and have seen various posts scattered, so was wondering if those who have been through it can say some more about how it presented in them. Also interested in whether there is any connection to that and, for lake of a better term, (new onset) "neuropsychiatric" (I think) symptoms. I've also heard people on this forum discuss derealization, and i have no idea what that is.
Background and I've mentioned some of this before is after years of CFS and AI illness, the symptomatolgy changed a few years ago along with the onset of a frequently recurrent presumed hsv1 (herpes simplex 1) in atypical places. Hard to know if the herpes virus was causal as it also followed a mystery febrile respiratory illness I got from a doctor that gave me a week of fever, 6 weeks of coughing, and followed by severe vertigo.
But now fast forward from that and new symptoms have occurred in I'd say - not sure - 6 weeks? 2 months? Each herpes viral recurrence causes flares in the dysautonomia with especially excess sympathetic nervous system activity. and now its more like i have the recurrences at a low level all the time.
but... besides the worsening nerve pains in head and chest and electric sensations. with each recurrence and dizziness (all of which i've had since the start of the virus), I can no longer be comfortable in my own skin. not sure how to describe - agitated maybe? cannot relax for a second. feels awful.!In addition, emotions are off and not like me at all- moments of rage (I'll wake up in a rage), moments where something on TV seems INTENSELY funny - like emotional reactions all exaggerated. Three's also brain fog - something I did not have for years with CFS - it's much harder to write now and when i compare stuff i've written before to now, there is no comparison in quality and ease and elegance of expression. I think this is above and beyond the symptoms i get with sleep loss (which i also have - not sleepy). I do not feel like myself personality wise. I do NOT though get any obsessive thoughts /worries i've heard people talk about (not yet anyway) - so I don't have any troublesome thoughts or anything like that. I've tried many times to figure out why then this feels so uncomfortable (besides the upregulated and bizarre emotions which isn't uncomfortable per se, just not like me), but i cannot. I don't do well with meds, so there isn't anything i think i can take that may help (though i'd rather know first whats going on than to throw symptoms bandaids at it)
I've had a few moments where it's "lifted" - all of a sudden - like when i've had neck flareup injuries - then it just comes gradually back over a few days.
so curious to hear from others.. in terms of tests, i was thinking i need another one of the neural panels from mayo- it's been maybe 5 years since i had one (negative except positive ANA , not ANNA, was noted- and the panel i've heard people talk about here for neuropsychatric issues whose name i don't' remember.
Should i be getting nmda antibody tested? I'm not psychotiic - yet- but... (I know about the lab in germany and had discusssed with my neuro a few years back that i might get them, but for a variety of reason i dn't think i will be, so was thinking in terms of others. before this latest new symptoms, certainly did have reason for suspecting something up with andrenergic receptors).
also curious if there was a way anyone casually asked for the neuropsych panel whose name i don't remember this may seem unwarranted to others but there is not even a hint of anything in the psych category in my charts- i just haven't had any of those symptoms before. I am super reluctant to bring it up. its going to get plastered on my chart like a big red flag and i may not be able to put the genie back into the bottle if i mention it.
I also wonder if the herpes virus has spread from peripheral nervous system now to central nervous system and that's why now it's affecting cognition and emotions . but i don't think its herpes encephaliti8s, since it think i'd be dead from that by now if it was. otoh, autoimmune encephalitis is a possibility- that's why i was thinking along that direction.
so it's all alarming, not to mention uncomfortable
one more thing about antibodies, i'd like to test for like of anything else i know what to test, but i've never been a huge antibody producer. Not exactly sure why i think that, but ana titers for example have always been modest despite severe illness and IgG has never been elevated, plus i run lower than normal on other protein things like my beta 2 microglobulin is below normal (which of course is ignored) and CK below normal (despite muscle weakness, though i've read low CK happens in CFS and is a bad sign when it does). So even if i have the perfect list of antibody tests- i may be a seronegative version of this- whatever This turns out to be.
all adrenaline? but was never affecting cognition and emotions before. and the adrenaline is going to burn out everything...when i sleep (and cna't sleep much), as i mentioned, don't feel sleepy. and if something wakes me up (i'm super noise sensitive), i'm just wide awake; i never feel groggy or anything. can't relax even if sleep.
i can't even meditate anymore. its impossible to attend to anything- its not that mind wanders its that too "agitated" to concentrate on anything. so i can't even do the "body scan" excercise, something i used to do and could count on for being relaxing.
i of course have other symptoms, but mentioning these\
anyway, ring a bell with anyone else?
Background and I've mentioned some of this before is after years of CFS and AI illness, the symptomatolgy changed a few years ago along with the onset of a frequently recurrent presumed hsv1 (herpes simplex 1) in atypical places. Hard to know if the herpes virus was causal as it also followed a mystery febrile respiratory illness I got from a doctor that gave me a week of fever, 6 weeks of coughing, and followed by severe vertigo.
But now fast forward from that and new symptoms have occurred in I'd say - not sure - 6 weeks? 2 months? Each herpes viral recurrence causes flares in the dysautonomia with especially excess sympathetic nervous system activity. and now its more like i have the recurrences at a low level all the time.
but... besides the worsening nerve pains in head and chest and electric sensations. with each recurrence and dizziness (all of which i've had since the start of the virus), I can no longer be comfortable in my own skin. not sure how to describe - agitated maybe? cannot relax for a second. feels awful.!In addition, emotions are off and not like me at all- moments of rage (I'll wake up in a rage), moments where something on TV seems INTENSELY funny - like emotional reactions all exaggerated. Three's also brain fog - something I did not have for years with CFS - it's much harder to write now and when i compare stuff i've written before to now, there is no comparison in quality and ease and elegance of expression. I think this is above and beyond the symptoms i get with sleep loss (which i also have - not sleepy). I do not feel like myself personality wise. I do NOT though get any obsessive thoughts /worries i've heard people talk about (not yet anyway) - so I don't have any troublesome thoughts or anything like that. I've tried many times to figure out why then this feels so uncomfortable (besides the upregulated and bizarre emotions which isn't uncomfortable per se, just not like me), but i cannot. I don't do well with meds, so there isn't anything i think i can take that may help (though i'd rather know first whats going on than to throw symptoms bandaids at it)
I've had a few moments where it's "lifted" - all of a sudden - like when i've had neck flareup injuries - then it just comes gradually back over a few days.
so curious to hear from others.. in terms of tests, i was thinking i need another one of the neural panels from mayo- it's been maybe 5 years since i had one (negative except positive ANA , not ANNA, was noted- and the panel i've heard people talk about here for neuropsychatric issues whose name i don't' remember.
Should i be getting nmda antibody tested? I'm not psychotiic - yet- but... (I know about the lab in germany and had discusssed with my neuro a few years back that i might get them, but for a variety of reason i dn't think i will be, so was thinking in terms of others. before this latest new symptoms, certainly did have reason for suspecting something up with andrenergic receptors).
also curious if there was a way anyone casually asked for the neuropsych panel whose name i don't remember this may seem unwarranted to others but there is not even a hint of anything in the psych category in my charts- i just haven't had any of those symptoms before. I am super reluctant to bring it up. its going to get plastered on my chart like a big red flag and i may not be able to put the genie back into the bottle if i mention it.
I also wonder if the herpes virus has spread from peripheral nervous system now to central nervous system and that's why now it's affecting cognition and emotions . but i don't think its herpes encephaliti8s, since it think i'd be dead from that by now if it was. otoh, autoimmune encephalitis is a possibility- that's why i was thinking along that direction.
so it's all alarming, not to mention uncomfortable
one more thing about antibodies, i'd like to test for like of anything else i know what to test, but i've never been a huge antibody producer. Not exactly sure why i think that, but ana titers for example have always been modest despite severe illness and IgG has never been elevated, plus i run lower than normal on other protein things like my beta 2 microglobulin is below normal (which of course is ignored) and CK below normal (despite muscle weakness, though i've read low CK happens in CFS and is a bad sign when it does). So even if i have the perfect list of antibody tests- i may be a seronegative version of this- whatever This turns out to be.
all adrenaline? but was never affecting cognition and emotions before. and the adrenaline is going to burn out everything...when i sleep (and cna't sleep much), as i mentioned, don't feel sleepy. and if something wakes me up (i'm super noise sensitive), i'm just wide awake; i never feel groggy or anything. can't relax even if sleep.
i can't even meditate anymore. its impossible to attend to anything- its not that mind wanders its that too "agitated" to concentrate on anything. so i can't even do the "body scan" excercise, something i used to do and could count on for being relaxing.
i of course have other symptoms, but mentioning these\
anyway, ring a bell with anyone else?