The other day I rang the emergency mental health number I'd been told to ring when in emotional crisis at 6.30am being upset with how bad my family is (no support at all) and due to the severe insomina Im getting so at 6.30am I still havent been able to sleep at all. I get so so tired but cant sleep and then fall asleep when trying to do activities (I once fell asleep in the sink while doing dishes as i was so so tired due to lack of sleep). At times it takes me 48hrs before I can get any sleep (at the worst Ive gone 3 days without sleep, I start halluncinating and everything due to lack of sleep). This makes life hard to deal with when so tired and causes me to cry and to get quite stressed out.
Anyway.. once again the mental health people have stuffed up again.. the emergency crisis line did have my notes they'd sent to them but once again I heard "You shouldnt be using our service for this shall we ring an ambulance" (i was using them just for something to talk to as I was in tears over not being able to sleep and hence quite distressed and feeling down and really needed a pick up). The emergency line kept asking me why no one else was dealing with my case so I just had to keep saying Mt Barker Mental health had actually passed me onto them and hence why they'd sent them my file. Thou they had my file, they didnt believe the mental health service werent at all dealing with me or trying to help me, so I was told that so said they'd ring Mt Barker Mental health once they were open and get them to ring me back that day.
Mt Barker mental health didnt ring me back but did so the next day. (After I'd found out there was a mental health event in my town "mental health week" so I went down there and complained about my situation of never having any emotional support and being turned down by all the services even at the times Im getting suicidal at times). Anyway.. after I'd been done there and complained .. Mt Barker mental health rang (I dont know if it was cause they heard of my complaints at that public event or not.. last time i got their attention it was cause I'd taken my case to a reporter who was going to report it!!).
Anyway.. they rang and arranged to do a home visit today. I thought it was going to be another assessment in which they usually go "oh you arent suicidual right at this very moment or have depression so we cant help you!" (they usually do that even when Ive been in hospital days before due to serious suicide attempt). I allowed them to make the appointment with me at 11.00am knowing they'd be waking me up at that time (as I often dont get to sleep till daylight) so I greeted them at the door all zombie like and dazed and undressed.
Anyway for the first time ever.. they asked if I'd like home help etc and started offering 2-3hrs per week to take me shopping, home help and other stuff. (Im still amazed at this and wonder if they are like just testing out my responses or what.. in the past everything they've told me was lies). Anyway.. of cause I said yes (my boyfriend was here the day before doing my dishes which hadnt been done for a week and hence my house looked tidy while they were here... so im confused why they suddenly offered that). So now its just wait and see if they really will arrange something to help me or give me some support rather then just try to dump me onto other services which arent right either.
Fingers crossed that i may FINALLY get the support ive been needing for past 14 years.
I assume the fact I wasnt even with it enough to answer their questions properly (I often spent the first 2-3hrs if woken up extremely dazed so I probably was coming across as a dementia patient) may of helped.
Anyway.. once again the mental health people have stuffed up again.. the emergency crisis line did have my notes they'd sent to them but once again I heard "You shouldnt be using our service for this shall we ring an ambulance" (i was using them just for something to talk to as I was in tears over not being able to sleep and hence quite distressed and feeling down and really needed a pick up). The emergency line kept asking me why no one else was dealing with my case so I just had to keep saying Mt Barker Mental health had actually passed me onto them and hence why they'd sent them my file. Thou they had my file, they didnt believe the mental health service werent at all dealing with me or trying to help me, so I was told that so said they'd ring Mt Barker Mental health once they were open and get them to ring me back that day.
Mt Barker mental health didnt ring me back but did so the next day. (After I'd found out there was a mental health event in my town "mental health week" so I went down there and complained about my situation of never having any emotional support and being turned down by all the services even at the times Im getting suicidal at times). Anyway.. after I'd been done there and complained .. Mt Barker mental health rang (I dont know if it was cause they heard of my complaints at that public event or not.. last time i got their attention it was cause I'd taken my case to a reporter who was going to report it!!).
Anyway.. they rang and arranged to do a home visit today. I thought it was going to be another assessment in which they usually go "oh you arent suicidual right at this very moment or have depression so we cant help you!" (they usually do that even when Ive been in hospital days before due to serious suicide attempt). I allowed them to make the appointment with me at 11.00am knowing they'd be waking me up at that time (as I often dont get to sleep till daylight) so I greeted them at the door all zombie like and dazed and undressed.
Anyway for the first time ever.. they asked if I'd like home help etc and started offering 2-3hrs per week to take me shopping, home help and other stuff. (Im still amazed at this and wonder if they are like just testing out my responses or what.. in the past everything they've told me was lies). Anyway.. of cause I said yes (my boyfriend was here the day before doing my dishes which hadnt been done for a week and hence my house looked tidy while they were here... so im confused why they suddenly offered that). So now its just wait and see if they really will arrange something to help me or give me some support rather then just try to dump me onto other services which arent right either.
Fingers crossed that i may FINALLY get the support ive been needing for past 14 years.
I assume the fact I wasnt even with it enough to answer their questions properly (I often spent the first 2-3hrs if woken up extremely dazed so I probably was coming across as a dementia patient) may of helped.