My parents wonr stop pushing krX. I al going to die. I am losing the abimity to move at all. They will kill me.
This is intense. And the added stress of that situation is no doubt making you fee ten times more afraid and panicked and making symptoms much worse (not to say they wouldn’t be there anyway). The self blame is hard as well.
I remember Whitney did that post a while ago ‘the blues is like a passing bird’ what I took from that was try to live in the present. Get through it minute by minute trying not to worry about the future or blame yourself for the past. That seems to be what he tries to do which may be helpful.
I wonder what could possibly be an answer. There should be clinics for very severe people with no support or people who are toxic situations. Or even out reach like meals on wheels or something- does that exist in your area at all? Reduce some of the reliance on tori toxic family. Maybe one day there’ll be some better funding as me and long Covid are making it in the media again.
I’ll try and think of any type of solution. I’m assuming you are in America? Is social care nor very good there?
Have you tried l-serine/glycine? They work in cohort for people with epilepsy and schizophrenia (not saying you have that just some of the psychosis I’ve been experience I think could possibly relate to these symptoms) that’s what I’m getting arriving today thank god. Another nights of fits and visions for me.
Another that helps me with the fits and hallucinations is alcohol. I’m assuming you poss can’t handle it but if you can it’s the only thing that’s got me through the sleep stuff and into a 4 hour sleep this evening (with quite a bit of gross spasms mind but no psychosis). Much much needed after 3 days of nothing but fits and delusions :/
I’m getting some serine today. Maybe you could try that on a toothpick. I could always airmail you few tablets if you didn’t want to buy a whole pack. I do a lot of reading as I came from biomed background and it seems really promising for our symptoms. Involved in epilepsy / schizophreni-(again not saying you have this just, as schizophrenia is something you are essentially born with, but there is an overlap of symptoms to me)