Gingergrrl
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In the last 1-2 yrs I've developed what I would call an exaggerated startle response but initially it was just an occasional thing with random episodes here and there. Now it happens multiple times per day and it's driving me insane b/c I cannot figure out a single thing to stop it .
Does anyone else have this and what do you do for it?
The number one trigger is an unexpected noise (someone knocking at the door, my dog barking, etc) but it can also be an unexpected movement (someone opens my bedroom door when I am in deep concentration or they enter the room when I am resting and I see a shadow move which scares me) or even an unexpected touch (my dog jumps on top of me when I don't know she is there or my husband touches my arm when not expecting it, etc).
It is not a sensory issue b/c I have no issue with lights, no issue with typing on computer, listening to music, watching TV, talking on phone, etc. For example, I was working on our (belated) taxes last week while listening to music and adding up numbers on calculator and my brain can easily multi-task. So it's not a cognitive issue or even a sensory issue IMO. Doing detailed cognitive tasks like complex paperwork while listening to music and talking to family all at the same time is easy for me.
I wanted to explain what it was not and now will explain what occurs. I get startled and the response is purely physiological and/or autonomic without even time to process what has happened. My muscles tighten and freeze up including my ability to swallow. My muscles feel like concrete and they start shaking (usually my arms and legs) and sometimes my left shoulder starts twitching. While the muscles are going berserk, I feel as if I'd had a shot of Epi to the heart. I feel jittery and usually confused. Sometimes there is tachycardia but other times it feels like tachy but when I measure it, there is none (probably b/c I take Atenolol for POTS which blocks it).
The worst example was about a month ago I was at an event at my daughter's school and someone very loudly and completely unexpectedly broke a mirror and it shattered all over the room and literally scared the crap out of me. I was instantly shaking and crying and had to leave the room and couldn't even speak. Rationally, I can immediately understand what occurred (whether the broken mirror or my dog barking) but my body cannot stop the reaction. So there is no amount of CBT or cognitive things I could say to myself b/c the reaction is purely physical. And it's not in the context of an emotionally charged situation either and I could be feeling content or even good prior to the startle/trigger (vs. anxious or upset).
I wondered if I could be low on Magnesium (which I reduced after learning that I have this calcium channel autoantibody) b/c two Neuros told me not to take Mg b/c it further blocks the calcium channel. Yet one doctor said it was okay to take and another said that they had no idea and could not advise. I see my own Neuro this coming week (she is new and it's only my 2nd appt but I liked her and she supported my IVIG) so I am going to ask her opinion on all of this (the Mg and the entire startle reflex).
I worry b/c I also have this other autoantibody GAD65 that correlates to SPS (Stiff Person Syndrome) but in SPS, the symptoms seem to be much more severe than what I experience. But GAD65 is the gold standard test for it and I am positive. I wonder if I could now have a mild case if there is such a thing? But one of the meds for it, Baclofen, which I have never taken in my life, is a calcium channel blocker so I don't even think this would be an option for me. Another option seems to be Klonipin which I prefer not to take during the day b/c it makes me tired (although if it could prevent or stop this startle response, I guess it would be worth it). A third option is IVIG which I am already doing although nowhere close to the recommended dose for AI diseases.
I also have severe muscle pain waking me up every night which includes shaking, twitching, etc, of muscles. I often feel like my neck is being gently pushed toward the side (but I have a long history of neck problems so this could be unrelated). My #1 problem (anaphylaxis) is gone and I am in a remission from MCAS for the second time since starting IVIG and can even eat peanut butter and things I'd never dreamed of with no pre food meds or allergic reaction. My #2 problem, shortness of breath, remains the same but when I lie flat, it eventually resolves itself.
But this issue, the insane startle reflex and ensuing muscle pain/spasms, is not resolved by lying down or any positional change and seems to just be getting worse and worse. My very worst episode last year lasted for 48 hours but most last for a few minutes to a few hours and finally dissipate. Today I actually thought if I lived alone without other people and a dog constantly startling me, I could have some relief but of course I do not actually want that. It just shows how desperate I am for this to go away! (ETA: just wanted to clarify that I love my dog and love dogs in general and am not scared of them, it's the sudden high pitched bark when I am not expecting the noise that scares me).
ETA: I also wanted to add that I found a term on-line "hyperekplexia" that kind of matches what I experience except it seems more common in infants/children than in adults. I am not sure how hyperekplexia differs from SPS either.
Many thanks to anyone still reading and it is impossible for me to write a short post once I get going... .
Does anyone else have this and what do you do for it?
The number one trigger is an unexpected noise (someone knocking at the door, my dog barking, etc) but it can also be an unexpected movement (someone opens my bedroom door when I am in deep concentration or they enter the room when I am resting and I see a shadow move which scares me) or even an unexpected touch (my dog jumps on top of me when I don't know she is there or my husband touches my arm when not expecting it, etc).
It is not a sensory issue b/c I have no issue with lights, no issue with typing on computer, listening to music, watching TV, talking on phone, etc. For example, I was working on our (belated) taxes last week while listening to music and adding up numbers on calculator and my brain can easily multi-task. So it's not a cognitive issue or even a sensory issue IMO. Doing detailed cognitive tasks like complex paperwork while listening to music and talking to family all at the same time is easy for me.
I wanted to explain what it was not and now will explain what occurs. I get startled and the response is purely physiological and/or autonomic without even time to process what has happened. My muscles tighten and freeze up including my ability to swallow. My muscles feel like concrete and they start shaking (usually my arms and legs) and sometimes my left shoulder starts twitching. While the muscles are going berserk, I feel as if I'd had a shot of Epi to the heart. I feel jittery and usually confused. Sometimes there is tachycardia but other times it feels like tachy but when I measure it, there is none (probably b/c I take Atenolol for POTS which blocks it).
The worst example was about a month ago I was at an event at my daughter's school and someone very loudly and completely unexpectedly broke a mirror and it shattered all over the room and literally scared the crap out of me. I was instantly shaking and crying and had to leave the room and couldn't even speak. Rationally, I can immediately understand what occurred (whether the broken mirror or my dog barking) but my body cannot stop the reaction. So there is no amount of CBT or cognitive things I could say to myself b/c the reaction is purely physical. And it's not in the context of an emotionally charged situation either and I could be feeling content or even good prior to the startle/trigger (vs. anxious or upset).
I wondered if I could be low on Magnesium (which I reduced after learning that I have this calcium channel autoantibody) b/c two Neuros told me not to take Mg b/c it further blocks the calcium channel. Yet one doctor said it was okay to take and another said that they had no idea and could not advise. I see my own Neuro this coming week (she is new and it's only my 2nd appt but I liked her and she supported my IVIG) so I am going to ask her opinion on all of this (the Mg and the entire startle reflex).
I worry b/c I also have this other autoantibody GAD65 that correlates to SPS (Stiff Person Syndrome) but in SPS, the symptoms seem to be much more severe than what I experience. But GAD65 is the gold standard test for it and I am positive. I wonder if I could now have a mild case if there is such a thing? But one of the meds for it, Baclofen, which I have never taken in my life, is a calcium channel blocker so I don't even think this would be an option for me. Another option seems to be Klonipin which I prefer not to take during the day b/c it makes me tired (although if it could prevent or stop this startle response, I guess it would be worth it). A third option is IVIG which I am already doing although nowhere close to the recommended dose for AI diseases.
I also have severe muscle pain waking me up every night which includes shaking, twitching, etc, of muscles. I often feel like my neck is being gently pushed toward the side (but I have a long history of neck problems so this could be unrelated). My #1 problem (anaphylaxis) is gone and I am in a remission from MCAS for the second time since starting IVIG and can even eat peanut butter and things I'd never dreamed of with no pre food meds or allergic reaction. My #2 problem, shortness of breath, remains the same but when I lie flat, it eventually resolves itself.
But this issue, the insane startle reflex and ensuing muscle pain/spasms, is not resolved by lying down or any positional change and seems to just be getting worse and worse. My very worst episode last year lasted for 48 hours but most last for a few minutes to a few hours and finally dissipate. Today I actually thought if I lived alone without other people and a dog constantly startling me, I could have some relief but of course I do not actually want that. It just shows how desperate I am for this to go away! (ETA: just wanted to clarify that I love my dog and love dogs in general and am not scared of them, it's the sudden high pitched bark when I am not expecting the noise that scares me).
ETA: I also wanted to add that I found a term on-line "hyperekplexia" that kind of matches what I experience except it seems more common in infants/children than in adults. I am not sure how hyperekplexia differs from SPS either.
Many thanks to anyone still reading and it is impossible for me to write a short post once I get going... .
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