lately i've been wondering if i have alzheimer's. not to take away from those who have this horrendously debilitating illness. but...i'm wondering, do you ever wonder this...
when you can't remember ANYone's name?...
when you stop remembering how to spell?...
when you don't remember what day of the week it is, much less the date?...
when you never remember more than one thing on your shopping list...and that's iffy?...
when you fail to remember the last paragraph you read?...
do you wonder when...
you can't track in a conversation with one person?...
you discover you didn't register the last 4 blocks you drove?...
you find multitasking is impossible? (which isn't so bad, come to think of it!)...
you had no idea it was Palm Sunday and you haven't even thought about planning Easter dinner for your family?...
you have to ask your 81-year-old mother which of your kids did what in their childhood?...
you attempt to follow a thread in the only forum you participate in, and your head feels like it's spinning off?
or have you wondered, "maybe it's the medication"...or "maybe it's not the medication, nor alzheimer's (thank God!)...maybe this is just the way i am."?
have you wondered..."for how long?"..."for always?"?
today i was able to visit with a friend. today i got from one place to the other. tonight i got to see my granddaugher receive her first Principle's Honor Roll, High Honor's award (she's 5). tonight..i can read...and write a bit. i am grateful. and i sorrow over those who weren't able today.
but i'm wondering...have you wondered about these things?
resting...yet wondering.
when you can't remember ANYone's name?...
when you stop remembering how to spell?...
when you don't remember what day of the week it is, much less the date?...
when you never remember more than one thing on your shopping list...and that's iffy?...
when you fail to remember the last paragraph you read?...
do you wonder when...
you can't track in a conversation with one person?...
you discover you didn't register the last 4 blocks you drove?...
you find multitasking is impossible? (which isn't so bad, come to think of it!)...
you had no idea it was Palm Sunday and you haven't even thought about planning Easter dinner for your family?...
you have to ask your 81-year-old mother which of your kids did what in their childhood?...
you attempt to follow a thread in the only forum you participate in, and your head feels like it's spinning off?
or have you wondered, "maybe it's the medication"...or "maybe it's not the medication, nor alzheimer's (thank God!)...maybe this is just the way i am."?
have you wondered..."for how long?"..."for always?"?
today i was able to visit with a friend. today i got from one place to the other. tonight i got to see my granddaugher receive her first Principle's Honor Roll, High Honor's award (she's 5). tonight..i can read...and write a bit. i am grateful. and i sorrow over those who weren't able today.
but i'm wondering...have you wondered about these things?
resting...yet wondering.