where does your mind go when you're knocked down? to...
what others may be thinking?
if you got yourself into this state?
what's the point of ever doing anything if i have to pay with days, a week, a month, or longer in bed?
how do i pace when at an event that lasts all day?
if i just push myself...couldn't i get over this?
maybe i just want to be sick?
when should i push myself?
am i only ever to do stuff with family and rarely have energy for friends?
how hard do i push to make a bed-ridden day an up & at 'em day?
am i on the right meds?
what other therapies/treatments should i try?
will i ever find a doctor that gets it, now that i've lost mine?
will i ever be well again?
how do you know?
this i know...that my Redeemer lives, and at the last He will stand upon the earth...and after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh i shall see God, whom i shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold.
in the meantime...as i wait, in a sure hope...that this is not all there is...
please tell me i'm really sick.