Because HC is a Serious Drug. Hormones are about the most powerful drugs you can take.
Like all hormones you can't just dive in, you have to go low, go slow. It's a blood level you're building up to. Taking too much at once might knock out your adrenals. 20 mg/day will make the adrenals stop working altogether, whether you build up to that dosage slow or not. A person with functioning adrenals might knock them out with just 10 mg/day, I don't know, I'm cautious, with reason.
I was hoping 2,5-5mg of HC might be just enough to scaffold your adrenals a bit. Not knock them out. But I have no way of knowing where your adrenals are on the adrenal crash scale. It sounds like you are all over the place
too wired, no long periods of safe haven, a little bit of this or that riles up the system extremely, things are out of proportion. You seem to not have crashed and died yet but you are well on your way: your stress system is out of whack and cannot handle your living situation any more. High cortisol will lower your immune system and make you vulnerable to diseases. Once your adrenals crash for good low cortisol will erode your body from within and you will die slowly, albeit not from a cold because your immune system will be full on diva without cortisol to temper it.
I have some tips for your current living situation to preserve energy where possible:
- preserve digestive energy. Eat egg yokes, chicken stock, body builders protein (Pepto Pro is my choice). Each one provides full spectrum amino acids and no gristle (like in meat) for your system to waste energy on. Protein does tire the system though so take it with a bit of stomach acid (HCL pill, diluted lemon juice, diluted vinegar) and even digestive enzymes. Full spectrum amino acids do not need vitamins for uptake. Only carbohydrates require vitamins for digestion. Don't eat vegetables, especially not raw or leafy or whole grain things. This require a lot of digestive energy. Drink vegetable water or smoothy if you feel you need veggies.
- your ear mufflers. Excellent. And the
lying down bit. Of course you need salt and water and vit C to help your adrenals to keep blood pressure up. The reason for blood pressure is to press nutrients into your tissues. (amino acids = nutrients). Nutrients in your tissues equal bodily repairs. So lying down is good.
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The Relaxation Response. Gets your adrenal system out of Fight or Flight. Indulge in some of those meditation tapes, singing whales, herb wearing hippies chanting. You're not there for the enlightenment, you need the physical relaxation which is a scientific thing your nervous system does. The parasympathetic nervous system to be more precise. The system that runs on cholines, which are found in egg yokes.
- reduce time/attention for anyone who does not build you up. Toxic people, demanding people, nagging people,
whining people, needy people. Baiiiiiii. Just have your eyes glaze over, build a mental Avenger shield around you and smile. Retreat emotionally from these people, if physical retreat is not possible.
You can physically remove them from your live, I highly recommend this. You can always say you need a year fro yourself and you'll contact them first thing 2020.
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harvesting endorphines. These will help your nervous system get out and stay out of Fight or Flight. Put on your ear mufflers, lay back, close your eyes, wiggle your toes and let your subconscious tell you what you(r body) would like to do for fun today. Then do it. It may be taking a bath and clipping your nails. It may be walking a dog. Sitting in a book store. Crashing your bike into a pond. Pouring flour all over yourself and the kitchen. I don't know. It can be anything and it probably feels mundane, silly, stupid, immature but I don't care one bit what judgement your mind attaches to it (!!). Just lie back, listen to what might put a smile on your face today and then do that. (Again, not here for the giggles, here for the parasympathetic nervous system.)
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the sleeping problem... this is a worry. Don't bother with melatonin, it will probably rile up your messed up system anyway. You might want to look into Progesteron and DHEA instead. Your adrenals are supposed to make these and use them for building cortisol out of. They can also be converted to Pregnenolone which is the most powerful sleeping hormone known to man. But remember: these are al hormones, you are messing with rocket fuel here.
At this point your system is so overwhelmed and overstimulated and trying to survive with both the choke and break full on that there is not one magic pill to cure you. But the multi-angle approach will lessen the burden on your cortisol/ stress system and make it more robust so it can fight this disease. Rest it, feed it, alleviate it, make it smile.
Yes, I'd take HC at the time you wake up. Normal people have their peak at 8 in the morning and have 80% of their dosage before noon. If your wake up time is at another time I'd try and mimic that curve and worry about shifting the curve back to its regular time in the 24 hour cycle at a later date.
interestingly: before cortisol starts at 6 o clock in the morning there's the REM phase of your sleep and this is when the Human Growth Hormone peaks. HGH = the major repair hormone of the body. Peak from 4 to 6 in the morning. Helping HGH will repair better than helping cortisol. Cortisol is to get you through a day, HGH is to repair you structurally.
HGH is helped by adequate Magnesium intake (-citrate -bisglicinate and -malate are good) and by Kalium (Potassium in USA). Of course Kalium needs to be balanced by Sodium, which your adrenals need, so take both. Progesteron, Testosteron and Oestrogen levels all help with HGH. And.... HGH needs full spectrum amino acids. Egg yokes and/or chicken stock again.