Thoughts on Suicide — A Dream Experience

[jesse's mom]

I am having a very sensitive day today. This tread helped me to calm down. I appreciate all your thoughts on this topic.

 

[CreativeB]

Sending hugs @jesse's mom

 

[YippeeKi YOW !!]

“The wheels of God grind slowly, but they grind exceedingly well”.

"The mills of the gods grind slowly, but they grind exceedingly fine." -- Sextus Empiricus, 3rd Century AD, or CE if you prefer

Thought your post was illuminating, fascinating .... thank you for the open and honest share, helped lift me up out of a night of insomnia and light dozes, interspersed with disturbing dreams that left me with that uneasy, disquieted feeling that all was not well.

Better now. Thank you.

Will come back and post some coping techniques, or possibly avoidance techniques, that I've used successfully in the past, and currently. Most of them stand the test of time. Not sure how deeply they develop the soul, but every day above ground gives us another schoolroom, eh?

 

[YippeeKi YOW !!]

@Mary I have no idea what edsels are so I must be too young?!!

Thought to be the ugliest car ever made!

Not only the ugliest car ever made, but a stealth bomb that almost brought Ford Motors down, like, terminally.

So no, not a good choice for a metaphorical vehicle, I'd think. But better than a hearse.

Boy, I'm cheery today. I'll leave quietly.

 

[YippeeKi YOW !!]

So rather than the usual attempts to address the neurological issues we have in our brains, my thoughts have turned to moving to a universe in which brains are not necessary!

Book me a room with a view, yes?

 

[YippeeKi YOW !!]

the next spurt of energy I have i want to use to arrange things so that I can pass if I need to... meaning get some affairs in order, and , well...

Have you read Final Exit?

 

[lenora]

Hello everyone.....I can't answer in any particular order b/c somewhere along the way we lost that form. I noticed that Buddhism is the prevailing wisdom most respondents live by. At age 75, I still don't know what to believe and I guess I believe in what has given me the greatest comfort in the past.

I think ME has been a special gift to each of us. It has certainly made life harder, but perhaps not as hard as some illnesses have to those who are afflicted. we owe it to ourselves and whatever our beliefs may be to think and learn from our illness. Learn as much as possible....and realize that the days of a career and getting ahead are behind us. The bigger question is what is in front? I know for sure that I never would have become the woman I am today. I like her better to be perfectly honest....and she has given far more than the woman I would have stayed as if I had remained healthy. I'm just so thankful for what there is that gives me joy....little things that wouldn't have occurred to me in an easier life.

I have found that volunteer work was the way forward for me. Intense, all consuming work that was so needed in the early days (no internet). Even the NIH had no information on my conditions (I have a few, but 3 are major neurological difficulties). I have found peace within this turmoil and have given tremendously (of myself). I can meet death at anytime and know that I did my best.

I have no doubt that I'll have more suffering before this life ends, but I know too many people who have really suffered for all of their lives to be discouraged and feel sorry for myself. Not everyday is an "up" day, I don't mean that....and yes, I'm in a down period at the moment thanks to a bad fall at the beginning of January.

I have far less energy now than I did in my other recoveries. Perhaps this is as far as I'll go.....I don't let it worry me any longer. I can only do my best and be my best. I hope that's enough. Yours, Lenora

As I've said before, my very caring neurologist recently unexpectedly died....I'll never be able to replace him and I know it. I have one-3 meds that I really need, apart from that I'm ready to give it a go with fewer doctors and constant appointments. After all, we don't live forever. No, I don't look at that as suicide, it's just a fact of life.

Be a good and kind person....that's something we can all do and it cost exactly nothing. Make everyone else's life as easy as possible.....pray for those who need/want it and send it into the universe if they don't. It's a positive thing. "Give until it hurts" does not apply to just donations. I take it to mean giving of oneself. It was easier years ago to find groups that needed help, I'll say that....but many are still out there and it will give you great joy. Our family lives by this simple rule....even our working daughters. If people take advantage, that's their responsibility not yours. I just freely give of myself and have found it most rewarding. Yes, it's draining but is also uplifting.

 

[YippeeKi YOW !!]

I think ME has been a special gift to each of us.

I've been preaching on this for nearly three years, sometimes to the obvious dismay of some the members responding.

I admit that it's often difficult to find those gifts, and that the search is sometimes like the little kid, all excited on his birthday about a HUUUUGE pile of horse poop. As he enthusiastically digs thru it, someone asks him in surprize why he's so happy .... "Hey with this much horse shit, there's bound to be a pony in there somewhere ...".

It's in there. Somewhere. For me, it was the forced examination of my 'new' life, after the long bewailing of everything that it had taken from me, and what it might have brought with it that was positive.

realize that the days of a career and getting ahead are behind us.

Not necessarily. It's possible to find a new professional focus of some sort if we can heal enough, and maybe the frantic climbing-of-the-corporate-ladder part is over, but the contributing part might be just beginning.