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Piggybacking off https://www.mechanicalbasis.org/ + https://forums.phoenixrising.me/thr...cci-as-a-cause-of-your-cfs.56908/#post-945253 , a story of a man that suffered CFS alongside POTS...I'm inspired to sort out my body, especially when I'm still young (26) or else it's going to shoot me in the back. I am not saying I have CCI or ME...I've only suffered a very slight decline over the years...but, it really did fit into the general malfunction that defines my body.
ANYWAAAY...
I'm back here after just dealing with my fatigue and much more bizarre issues for a few years; I'm 26. It's not the worst story, but a story of me who...starting from when I was just a tiny girl had the black, sunken circles of the Grim Reaper--standing besides my family, I was the sole person with this issue, alongside with a droopy, ill-looking pallor...everyone else looked very much alive. What are even genes? Then again I have pointy elf ears too so maybe I'm just a mutant. I was always just weird. I got sick constantly.
Unlike the rest of my family I developed extremely severe speech delay, only learning to speak, and awfully at that, when I was 13--I was often tired and lethargic. I walked with a hunchback. Developed weird things like Kawasaki's, etc. Probably unrelated but, y'know, I find it kind of bizarre that apparently there's new evidence that it can be associated with getting viruses.
Despite having the same lifestyle as anyone else, family or peers, I perpetually wrote it off to Being A Normal Person. I told myself this for years. Even when my jaw started screaming in pain for a few years.
Welp. I actually had several issues that I didn't know of, like asthma that struck scarily sometime, severe dental issues and needing orthognatic surgery (haven't yet), being incapable of breathing through my nose, etc. I found this out about 2 years ago......but I was never taken to the dentist or doctor as a kid. I also had severe allergies, which were diagnosed at an allergist, to basically almost everything.
However, that doesn't explain everything.
-The fatigue is often sickly; my ligaments/limbs often feel weird, sore, with spikes of pain but somehow numb. My eyes often are in complete pain and sometimes become red, my head usually feels like the heaviest part of me
-Sometimes gets worse in a complete wave where a lot of symptoms get worse at the same time
-Bizarre senses of nausea and dizziness wash over me; I can barely get in a car without getting violently ill
-I've had severe acid reflex and digestive issues from when I was a little girl
-Sleep is never refreshing; in fact sometimes I wake up completely incapable of breathing and this started in my early teens when I didn't at all have anxiety nor knew I had any problems, it was terrifying. I also wake up with bad neck pain and I can't figure out how to sleep
-speaking of which I get pretty consistent neck and back soreness; my posture is bad but I have no idea what to do besides simple exercises like chin tucks. I also get bad TMJ, presumably from my several bite issues
-I have in the past gotten dizzy and almost past out completely randomly even when it wasn't from excercise besides basic stuff like walking; darkness clouded my eyes and I barely remained conscious...again this was before I realized that maybe something was genuinely wrong with me, about 3 years ago.
Peeling back what catalyzed my suspicions was an event.
So then I had a, erm. Weird Day. It was my birthday a few years ago; I ended up talking to this friend all night over the phone. I ended up laying out in the dorm yard on a gravity chair for 3-4 hours under the stars which I had never done before--it was a weird new posture. Despite staying up, which is usually impossible to me, for once I felt ok. This was probably also my longest day ever taling to anyone I remember going back indoors and sleeping at 7AM.
And then I woke up feeling like I had woken up from a 23 year long nightmare; even the sheets felt different because I for once didn't feel numbed pain. I FLEW out of bed like never before. Immediately when my dormmates saw me downstairs, even if I wasn't emoting, they flipped their shit and started spazzing out about how different I look and how I didn't look like death. I mean, my facial fatigue and pain was gone too.
Look. I took a picture of myself in a few parts of lighting for later reference, and realize they were completely, objectively right. The black dark circles around my eyes, since I was a kid, were for once completely gone, and the sunkeness faded away. None of my other pictures ever had this.
I remember talking infinitely better to the point where my speech impediment was completely and utterly gone; I freely joked and was far more eloquent and thinking of stuff on the fly as the brain fog was all gone. I was able to run and feel alright for once too without increasingly blacking out.
And then...despite feeling amazing the whole day, I went back to sleep, and I woke up again feeling like shit. What??
Honestly that scared me as I finally knew something was up, that I wasn't tripping at all and I had basically told myself hit was normal...and at that point I stopped being "forever fat" since I was a baby...I was working out, a healthy weight...and should have "felt better" with the better food I was eating...but I wasn't.
As noted earlier this is why I finally started seeing doctors.
Recently I finally asked my doctor last year about why I was incapable of breathing through my nose and, welp, turned out that it was DEFORMED!! Insurance paid for my surgery, and while it made me feel a bit better and no longer mouth breathed, it didn't really fix much... but it was still an indication, besides the asthma diagnosis, that I wasn't totally imagining things. I've tried living a more healthy lifestyle though my condition is fairly consistent, as it always has been.
Honestly I'm still functional to a degree. I'm often woozy and out of it and struggle with thinking well, but I can still go do stuff. I can still kind of function even though life is mostly this fevere haze/dream....however, how I feel is very much I'd describe as very much an existential "3-4/10" and I can now confirm that it really does interfere with my life. I *get by*, I just can't really live life or really talk to people and I realize that this isn't normal.
ANYWAAAY...
I'm back here after just dealing with my fatigue and much more bizarre issues for a few years; I'm 26. It's not the worst story, but a story of me who...starting from when I was just a tiny girl had the black, sunken circles of the Grim Reaper--standing besides my family, I was the sole person with this issue, alongside with a droopy, ill-looking pallor...everyone else looked very much alive. What are even genes? Then again I have pointy elf ears too so maybe I'm just a mutant. I was always just weird. I got sick constantly.
Unlike the rest of my family I developed extremely severe speech delay, only learning to speak, and awfully at that, when I was 13--I was often tired and lethargic. I walked with a hunchback. Developed weird things like Kawasaki's, etc. Probably unrelated but, y'know, I find it kind of bizarre that apparently there's new evidence that it can be associated with getting viruses.
Despite having the same lifestyle as anyone else, family or peers, I perpetually wrote it off to Being A Normal Person. I told myself this for years. Even when my jaw started screaming in pain for a few years.
Welp. I actually had several issues that I didn't know of, like asthma that struck scarily sometime, severe dental issues and needing orthognatic surgery (haven't yet), being incapable of breathing through my nose, etc. I found this out about 2 years ago......but I was never taken to the dentist or doctor as a kid. I also had severe allergies, which were diagnosed at an allergist, to basically almost everything.
However, that doesn't explain everything.
-The fatigue is often sickly; my ligaments/limbs often feel weird, sore, with spikes of pain but somehow numb. My eyes often are in complete pain and sometimes become red, my head usually feels like the heaviest part of me
-Sometimes gets worse in a complete wave where a lot of symptoms get worse at the same time
-Bizarre senses of nausea and dizziness wash over me; I can barely get in a car without getting violently ill
-I've had severe acid reflex and digestive issues from when I was a little girl
-Sleep is never refreshing; in fact sometimes I wake up completely incapable of breathing and this started in my early teens when I didn't at all have anxiety nor knew I had any problems, it was terrifying. I also wake up with bad neck pain and I can't figure out how to sleep
-speaking of which I get pretty consistent neck and back soreness; my posture is bad but I have no idea what to do besides simple exercises like chin tucks. I also get bad TMJ, presumably from my several bite issues
-I have in the past gotten dizzy and almost past out completely randomly even when it wasn't from excercise besides basic stuff like walking; darkness clouded my eyes and I barely remained conscious...again this was before I realized that maybe something was genuinely wrong with me, about 3 years ago.
Peeling back what catalyzed my suspicions was an event.
So then I had a, erm. Weird Day. It was my birthday a few years ago; I ended up talking to this friend all night over the phone. I ended up laying out in the dorm yard on a gravity chair for 3-4 hours under the stars which I had never done before--it was a weird new posture. Despite staying up, which is usually impossible to me, for once I felt ok. This was probably also my longest day ever taling to anyone I remember going back indoors and sleeping at 7AM.
And then I woke up feeling like I had woken up from a 23 year long nightmare; even the sheets felt different because I for once didn't feel numbed pain. I FLEW out of bed like never before. Immediately when my dormmates saw me downstairs, even if I wasn't emoting, they flipped their shit and started spazzing out about how different I look and how I didn't look like death. I mean, my facial fatigue and pain was gone too.
Look. I took a picture of myself in a few parts of lighting for later reference, and realize they were completely, objectively right. The black dark circles around my eyes, since I was a kid, were for once completely gone, and the sunkeness faded away. None of my other pictures ever had this.
I remember talking infinitely better to the point where my speech impediment was completely and utterly gone; I freely joked and was far more eloquent and thinking of stuff on the fly as the brain fog was all gone. I was able to run and feel alright for once too without increasingly blacking out.
And then...despite feeling amazing the whole day, I went back to sleep, and I woke up again feeling like shit. What??
Honestly that scared me as I finally knew something was up, that I wasn't tripping at all and I had basically told myself hit was normal...and at that point I stopped being "forever fat" since I was a baby...I was working out, a healthy weight...and should have "felt better" with the better food I was eating...but I wasn't.
As noted earlier this is why I finally started seeing doctors.
Recently I finally asked my doctor last year about why I was incapable of breathing through my nose and, welp, turned out that it was DEFORMED!! Insurance paid for my surgery, and while it made me feel a bit better and no longer mouth breathed, it didn't really fix much... but it was still an indication, besides the asthma diagnosis, that I wasn't totally imagining things. I've tried living a more healthy lifestyle though my condition is fairly consistent, as it always has been.
Honestly I'm still functional to a degree. I'm often woozy and out of it and struggle with thinking well, but I can still go do stuff. I can still kind of function even though life is mostly this fevere haze/dream....however, how I feel is very much I'd describe as very much an existential "3-4/10" and I can now confirm that it really does interfere with my life. I *get by*, I just can't really live life or really talk to people and I realize that this isn't normal.
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