free at last
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Hey Free,
I didn't mean to discount your experience or ideas. I have done the same thing, messed with diet, vitamins, etc. Who knows what they will discover, but it would be nice if it were simple, even if it's scary-simple.
This study doesn't give us what we need, but it does effectively put us back to the first day after the Science paper came out by showing that the negative studies were rubbish. Even if there are other factors, at least we have the hope that if we can take care of the XMRV we can all jog and smoke pot again (I prefer a nice glass of wine). I did not mean to sound dismissive - just wanted to point out that, as I understand it, XMRV could be the whole answer for many of us. Take good care.
Bluebell No i didnt take it like that at all, first you made me laugh, the knife in the head at the docs, those pesky eggs again or is it sauages. second it really made me think yes i do this, and look for clues out of frustration, as im sure so many do, also out of sheer frustration. when infact your so right, just the chance that xmrv is the culprit is enough by itself isnt it. No more looking under the bed for demons that may not exist there, just because you know there is a killer in the house somewhere
My greatest fear is of course that im not xmrv positive, and be right back where i started 15 years ago. All those years looking for bad eggs. I came to a point that i just gave up ever beliveing i would find a cause for all the fear frustration and illness. That this horrible thing called ME/CFS does to each and everyone of us. How messed up in the head can someone be, to actually want to have a retrovirus rather than more years of uncertainty and a great big ZERO.
I dont want to go to my grave never ever knowing why my life was so destroyed. The chance for a conclusion and understanding ( not sure if i will have treatment or not yet ? those drugs seem so toxic too) and a regaining of power and self respect to all those who laugh at us, and belittle us, when they havent got a damm clue how truely teffifying this illness can truley be. well 2 fingers up at them you know Bluebell.
im still in a state of shock to think our time might just be coming this time around,no more false dawns surely. im scared to have this virus but im even more scared not to have it.how nuts is that. At least if i go downhill again, i can fight back this time. So many are not with us now the brave souls who have fallen. Sophia and Lynn would have been a honour to have known them
And to Sharpe Wessley and White they have no idea what they have done,even if they think there right, for all these reasons please make it true this time. The suffereing and ridicule must end