Another related more recent follow-up from s4me relating to caregiving and ME’s impact on ability to work.
One question this has brought up, and I’ve been wondering recently, is how do we get people to understand the impact of ME on our ability to work. How does one convey that’s message?
Take this forum for example, that PWME can be on the computer every day and contribute to this site, which takes significant energy and cognitive effort depending online activity and thread subject matter. That’s just one example where ME-naive people will ask, “why can’t you use that time and effort doing a part-time job even from home?”
Also reading the OP caregivers thread its the same story that’s happened in most of our lives, including mine. After six years of gradual decline I’m now at (way past) the point where I am forced to quit my job because ME has gradually taken more and more of it and I have nothing left to cut out except my career.
Already forced to give up on everything else that was part of me and my life before ME. No more sports, no more physical activity, no more social life, no more hobbies, all of these ME took during the first two years and I fought it the entire way by just pushing to live my old life until I physically couldn’t do anything nonessential.
I have to say unless you are a PWME, a caregiver, family member or friend of a PWME (that visits often enough to see what it’s truly like) you just will not be able to understand the strange debilitating symptoms of this disease until it happens to you.
You are simply not in control of your body anymore, the disease completely takes over your body, including your brain function, and subjects you to a constant, and I mean literally constant, array of physiological and neurological symptoms that are simply exhausting on their own to manage if it weren’t for that multiple symptoms cause cause debilitating fatigue on their own.
They don’t understand why they can see you one day being active and “normal” looking and then tell them you have the horribly debilitating illness that causes you to constantly crash and be mostly bedbound.
The only part left of my old life and old me that I had left, and I fought so hard to keep for six years, is my career that is now finally coming to an end. I crash constantly, every 1-2 weeks depending on activity level, and crashes typically last 3 or 4 days before I recover enough to be able to function again. How can someone even manage any semblance of a normal life like this?
My last ditch effort to stem the worsening was to do a strict ketogenic diet which sadly was the only treatment I’ve tried in six years that gave any significant improvement. But the diet doesn’t work well enough, for me at least, to maintain the exertion levels required by work and not crash on a continual basis.
I’ve long said to myself, my life feels like the main character in the movie Memento, though every 1-2 weeks I crash and have to completely start my life over and pick up the pieces.
Sorry in advance to moderators if I’ve gone a bit off-topic.