I haven't been in a relationship in awhile...man. I'm okay with it. I got sick at 18 and had a 7 year relationship in spite of it. I get out daily, work part time, go to a movie or dinner. I still feel like no way to a super serious relationship.
Problem is, I want a relationship on my terms. I want to see them when I want to see them or I don't. I may want them to spend the night, or I may want them to go home. I'm semi selfish due to the illness.
Right now I'm wishing for someone to kiss. I want to kiss or even something physical. It's been so freaking long. But, I want no complications or expectations.
My friend said to me, "you should just go on the site "Grinder" and hook up with someone." But I'm not that kind of girl! It sounds interesting. It could be fun.
Seeing someone once a week, texting minimally and no expectations, but even as a female, expecting that from a man is rare. Every guy I date, or know at my age is needy. They are divorced and want you to fill the bill of their ex-wife. They're not used to being alone and they don't like it. Whereas, I like being alone. I recharge from being alone.
I would love to meet someone who travels often or has their own passions and life. Want to go golfing with your friends for a week? GO! I don't see myself with anyone all the time. I like the thought of having a part time love but knowing its "love."