I was referred to the Sussex ME Service and after a year on the waiting list I saw Dr Broughton, who carried out an extremely thorough consultation and confirmed the diagnosis, also ruling out depression. He suggested that I consider taking part in the PACE trial, on the basis that I could help to contribute to meaningful research into the treatment of ME/CFS, whilst receiving a course of treatment for 12 months. I was assured that at the end of the trial period I would be offered the choice of further treatment from the selection offered under the trial. I was randomly selected for the Graded Exercise Therapy (GET), and initially I was hopeful that I could slowly increase my activity and use this as a route to recovery — I always maintained a very positive attitude.
My exercise program consisted of walking approximately 50 metres in the morning and 50 meters in the afternoon, and the plan was to slowly increase the distance over the year, aiming to be able to complete approximately 600 metres, twice a day. After a promising start I suffered my first setback, and rang for advice, and was told to continue with the daily exercise despite feeling so unwell. I was provided with a heart rate monitor at the start of the trial period and had been monitoring this daily while I walked (recording the resting heart rate beforehand, the highest recorded rate during the walk, the rate at the finish, and the time taken to return to the resting rate). My heart rate was showing higher readings as the trial progressed and I became more and more unwell as the exercise continued daily. I was reporting back to a physiotherapist and after several months with this trend increasing she did say that they had not expected this result from the heart rate monitor — and several times asked me to re-turn the monitor as she felt these results did not bring anything useful for the trial, so she suggested we stop keeping records of the heart rate readings. I refused as I felt they were important and did not under-stand how a medical trial could possibly be impartial if the criteria were changed to ensure only expected results were recorded? I'm not an expert, but I certainly felt that my results were not being viewed impartially.
As the study continued I felt increasingly unwell and my own conclusion is that GET was harmful for me. When I received a report at the end of the trial it stated that nobody was harmed by GET, and I question the interpretation of my personal results. Also, I felt that the purpose of the trial seemed to be to get ill people to work, rather than to find ways to improve their health and wellbeing. Personally, I found the PACE trial set me back by several years, and improvement since has been very slow. I declined the offer of a different course of treatment, as the travelling was onerous and opted instead to be returned to the Sussex service. However Dr Broughton had left the service and there was very little help forthcoming. My GP oversaw my care, and whilst he was very kind, he did not have any specialist knowledge of ME/CFS. Since then I have undertaken a course of 6 individual sessions of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT), which served to confirm that I had a positive attitude towards my illness, with realistic expectations. However, there was nothing in the course that helped me to improve my health, so I would say it was neither helpful nor harmful.