(Apologies for long post but felt you needed all the info).
I'm very interested in this thread and wonder if anyone can help me with extremely distressing symptoms I'm experiencing on a daily basis. I'm now starting to wonder if they're withdrawal symptoms.
I was put on 0.8 mgs of Subutex 2 years ago for a mild opoid dependence (40 mgs of codeine a day) having unsuccessfully tried to taper off myself. In the UK they only put you on it for a month then taper off the next month.
All was going according to plan until I got 2 weeks into the Sub taper. I woke one morning unable to get out of bed, feeling really ill. This continued with VERY frightening suicidal thoughts and it was 3 days before I realised the symptoms were disappearing about an hour after I took the Subutex.
I was terrified and pretty sure this meant addiction had already built up and reducing the dose by half was obviously too much. My daughter was just about to give birth to her second baby (I was the birthing partner) and I had just started a new job so I went back up to the original dose, realising I would have to do a long, slow taper.
Things got worse - my CFS took hold and although I improved after a year, I had a relapse in January this year and haven't really recovered from that.
Like many of you I discovered Subutex helped my symptoms so was reluctant to come off it especially as I got worse. 2 years on I've only managed to reduce the dose by half and my 0.4 mgs dose is the only thing which gives me hope now.
About 2 months ago I really started to go downhill, becoming gripped with severe anxiety to the extent I became housebound and now am virtually bedbound. This is just not sustainable. I live on my own and have 3 cats to look after, one of which is quite ill and not expected to last till Christmas.
My symptoms have got worse recently and I'm now wondering if I'm going into withdrawal every morning. I only get around 2-4 hours sleep a night before I wake sweating, with constant RLS, severe anxiety, pounding and racing heart, feeling terrified, feeling sick, diaorrhea, and unable to concentrate on anything. I find this unbearable and am permanently exhausted. I also seem to be devoid of emotion. It feels like my body is being depleted by the hour.
I can barely last until 8.30 before I take my Subutex dose (half an hour after I force a few spoons of yoghurt down me) and a couple of hours after that, it takes the edge off everything and gives me a short period of relief before it all starts up again.
I'm finding this a living nightmare and am terrified it IS withdrawal in which case I'll never be able to stand coming off the drug if it's like this while I'm still ON it!
Would be really grateful for any opinions and advice from anyone who's been through anything similar and can recognise this.
@Skippa @Tunguska