Hi Carter,
Have been reviewing this thread again as there were some great things in here. I have just been through a terrible crash of about 6 weeks as I was getting too over confident on walking (about 1 mile a day) and after 7 days straight I painfully regretted all of it and spiraled down hill badly for 4 weeks.
I am going to try the sedentary life with minimal walking and just accept that there is no point in trying to keep any level of physical activity up for the moment.
You have covered your physical pacing very well, just interested in your mental pacing. Did you put restrictions on tv and laptop usage and try meditation etc? Did you ever notice that too much tv for instance affected you.
I personally seem to have major crashes associated with physical exertion but I have not noticed it with Mental so much but maybe I have just not tested it enough.
Thanks Jerry
Hey!
I did exactly same some years back. I was feeling generally better, so started a walking protocol... I've got a path in my back garden, so I invented this walking system where I'd walk 1 step forward; 1 step back; 2 steps forward; 2 back; etc. so when I was starting out I'd do a '10' - which would be going from 1 forward, 1 back up to 10 forward, 10 back.
I took to this really well. I worked up to 33 (the length of my garden), then I'd go back and do them in reverse: 33, 32, 31, etc. until I was up to about a mile a day.
I was feeling better and better as I was doing this; even finding myself running from time to time. At the time, I was convinced getting the graded exercise protocol right was a cure for CFS.
But actually the 1 mile mark was where I crashed. I did it for a few days then before I knew it I was getting fatigued throat/respiratory muscles from talking on the phone. Picked up some virus (or retriggered some virus) and was totally wiped out for months... I think it took a year before I could climb stairs again without getting out of breath.
Which makes sense if you 'get' the mitochondrial thing... There's a cell-level limit to how much energy you can exert. All you do with graded exercise is find that limit, because, as my own charts seem to show, repairing at the cell-level is VERY slow. About a 0.15% improvement a day if you're talking ALL the right supplements and pacing well (for me).
I spent years with graded exercise. I'd have ups and downs. On my ups I'd try walking daily; walking alternate days; walking only when I felt like walking; aerobics; yoga; etc. 5 years of that and I made no long-term progress at all. I think my Type A personality was still pushing me further and further into illness.
I *think* L-Glutamine might be a part of the reason we hit a wall with exercise. It's an abundant amino acid; low in CFS; used by muscles and immune system; levels plummet after exertion... Some people think it's implicated in overtraining syndrome (which I've always thought had a lot in common with CFS) because you exercise -> Glutamine drops -> immune system weakens -> pick up a virus -> further stress, etc. (Studies with 10g+ L-Glutamine/day seem to improve symptoms and activity levels.)
Mental exertion's not such a problem. It's something I notice more with driving.
When I was totally cutting back on activity to try and stabilise my condition (once I'd started taking all the Myhill supplements) I'd take more mental relaxation time. I'd often use hypnosis CDs throughout the day. Physical exertion's what's brought on crashes though. Although one of the most rewarding things about making slow, consistent improvements is that all these downsides - like crashing, like hitting a wall, etc. - ease up... So I can push a little outside my boundaries now and go further when I have to, and I also don't tend to pay for it so much later.
e.g. this time last year, just spending an hour or two with a friend at home would be quite exhausting. On NYE just gone I did 4-5 hours in a busy bar and had a few drinks, and didn't really have any symptoms that night or the following days.
Another e.g.: I've always needed a few hours after I wake up to completely rest and relax, otherwise I'd have low blood pressure, headaches, no energy, etc. Now I can get up and go straight to a dentists appointment, and my body can plough through it a bit without me getting tired and without any post-exertional malaise. But obviously I do these things sparingly, because (imo imo) there is no such 'disease' or condition as CFS - therefore you never *have* it or don't have it - it's just a general state of mitochondrial efficiency...
There'll be thousands of contributary factors: XMRV, EBV, anxiety, hyperventilation, vitamin deficiencies, mineral deficiencies, mercury, food allergies, etc. but CFS is just a state we find ourselves in and getting out of that state and staying out of it probably never stops being about pacing.
I honestly wonder if the whole condition isn't just rooted in perception of effort. Because other people who push themselves like I used to KNOW when they're tired and their bodies make them take it easy... As such, they never push themselves into mitochondrial failure or accumulated body burdens... I've never had that. I could do day after day of overwork and too much socialising, and my body would never really let me know I was overdoing it.
(I noticed this in the gym first. An ex of mine collapses in a heap after doing a few pressups, but if I encourage her, she can always knock another few out... To me, that seems like laziness, because when I exercise like that I'll just go straight to my limit and won't be able to do any more - no 'drama'. And this got me thinking about a hardwired perception of effort which is fundamentally different in us.)
Lot of rambling there! Incidentally, I've just posted 3 days straight of around 3,500 steps/day after a few weeks of slump. 650 days ago I peaked at 2,100-ish and spend 2 weeks paying for it. You've GOT to be the tortoise, not the hare.
I think the key with pacing with a pedometer is to explore your limits a bit. Chart everything in a spreadsheet or graph paper. But ultimately FIND the window of exertion which keeps your symptoms to an absolute minimum. My first year on supplements and wearing a pedometer was undoubtedly my laziest, most laid back year since getting ill... I had to go right back before my body would start nudging me forward. I see any symptoms as a sign you're doing too much. The good thing with charting it, though, is that slumps like fighting viruses and things aren't actually setbacks if you adjust your activity levels to suit... You get better and your activity trends go back up almost as if the slump hadn't happened. i.e. I think you still improve while you're knocked back as long as you pay attention to pacing. My chart's still full or ups and downs, but the trend's consistent now. It never used to be.