I hear you and it always bothered me why I was stressed in certain situations and others not. Being dependent on people was my trigger. I was always thinking differently and out of the box. Analyzing situations and recognizing patterns was my super power. However there was a lot of conflict potential because I was always analyzing everything to identify problems. But my processing of the „problems“ was always subjective. They quickly became threats and my heart started beating fast and was gasping for air when the person in front of me wasn’t behaving as I wanted him/her to behave. Some work trauma developed and made me very vulnerable to situations where work and money were involved. I saw that and tried to calm myself, but it didn’t work. However I know of people who were not like me and became sick as well. A 13 year old child became severely sick with Long Covid and 30 year old with totally normal behavioral patterns ( but with a sleeping disorder) became severe as well. Another LC patient I know was totally normal as well, but was exercising professionally and became bedridden as well. Those are different people with a different background that became I’ll. Therefore I‘m trying to not feel so guilty, because there is another process going on here which made us susceptible of becoming sick. Even I if I would not have done this one project my chances of becoming sick would have been very high. I remember when I was totally fine, no stress, meditation and yoga were my anchor points but still I would get double vision and ask myself what’s wrong… It is not our fault, it just happened. I want to get out of this hell soon.