https://www.facebook.com/wasow
Omar Wasow in Banff, Alberta.
20 hrs ·
After months of writing, revising, memorizing and rehearsing, the big day arrived:
Jen's talk at the TEDSummit in Banff, Canada. It was not an auspicious morning. I woke too early at about 6:30am to find Jen feeling terrible and desperately needing electrolytes, extra salt, aspirin and, ultimately, a house call from a doctor to provide an intravenous saline drip. I scrambled and, with the amazing support of the TED staff, was able to get it all. By 10am she'd perked up a bit but was still not feeling great. We made it over to the theater and she began the last bit of prepping. By about 30 minutes before showtime, we were sitting in a pitch-black room with the TV off to try and keep her from being overstimulated by light or sound.
By 5 minutes before showtime, we were standing off-stage. She was cool as a cucumber but I was all nerves and butterflies. Finally,
Tom Rielly offered a lovely introduction that encouraged folks not to clap so as to avoid triggering Jen's sound sensitivity. She then powered out to the middle of the stage and I nearly cried from the rush of emotion.
For the first seven minutes or so, everything went as planned. Through words, images and short video clips, Jen conveyed the many personal and political challenges confronted by those with her illness. As the talk progressed, though, she began to show signs of the mental fatigue that plagues people with ME/CFS. As someone who loves her to pieces, it was hard to watch. But, knowing I'd seen her fight through worse, I never lost faith.
A central challenge of Jen's illness is that most people never see the toll it takes. By being on stage, though, and struggling to speak she embodied those challenges more viscerally than any words ever could. As Jen wrote, “I ran into a brick wall about five times during the talk when there was just nothing but blank – no words, no thoughts. But everyone stood and silently cheered and sent up love and support when I stumbled. And I made it! To the end! It was hard because the old me, the me that I was and still am, wants to nail it, wants everything to be flawless. And I realized on stage that it's OK to let what is broken be broken. That it's more important to be true.”
At the end of the talk, the entire room was on their feet and waving their hands in the American Sign Language version of a standing ovation.
