im sorry to hear what you're going through, it sounds very difficult and I hope it gets better soon
I've got no advice on the medical issues, but here's some hope...
- Fluge and Mella are showing great promise with Rituximab and Cyclophosphamide, and based on the reports coming out of Kolibri and OMI, we have strong reason to believe Phase 3 will be a success
- Ron Davis, Robert Naviaux, and co are making breakneck strides in identifying a biomarker, explaining the underlying metabolics / genetics, and finding existing treatments to repurpose
- Jared Younger, Nancy Klimas, Kenny De Meirleir, Daniel Peterson, Derick Enlander, John Chia, Peter Rowe, Suzanne Vernon, and others have ongoing studies poised to show further breakthroughs
- Francis Collins and the NIH are increasing funding and studies
- The FDA is poised to speed up drug approval and reduce regulation increasing the odds that Ampligen and other drugs are approved
- More broadly the converging forces of Big Data, expanding biomedical research, increased philanthropic spending, artificial intelligence, nanotechnology, personalized medicine, and genetic therapy all point to an environment where new treatments and cures are more likely than ever before
On a personal note you may still find the right treatment and improve substantially, or you may experience a spontaneous improvement / remission.
Dr Kaiser, Dr Jason, Dr Lerner, and Dr Gottfries all had the disease for various periods of time and all improved enough to resume working
Many members of the Ampligen and Rituximab trials have resumed their normal working lives, and anecdotally I've seen many stories here and in other places of Canadian Consensus Criteria patients regaining full or close to full functionality