On that note, I suppose I should say now that a few days ago I bought my first van!
It's by no means in stellar condition, and it needs some fairly serious maintenance, but it is running, it lets me travel around and keeps me much safer now
Thank you to everyone who participated in this thread. Even though I was needing to find some peace of mind and relaxation so much that I wasn't able to check back until now ^^
Thank you all for your kindness and suggestions, even if I didn't read them until today, I have no doubt that the helpful and kind vibes you all sent forth played a part in me actualizing the purchase of my van and finding a safe and regular place to stay... and a way to move forward more easily
Thank you all m(_ _)m