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Extremely Severe ME/CFS-A Personal Account
Whitney Dafoe 1
DOI: 10.3390/healthcare9050504
Abstract
A personal account from an Extremely Severe Bedridden ME/CFS patient about the experience of living with extremely severe ME/CFS. Illness progression, medical history, description of various aspects of extremely severe ME/CFS and various essays on specific experiences are included.
Full text at the link: https://www.mdpi.com/2227-9032/9/5/504/htm
Severe ME/CFS List in Brief—Summarizing My Quality of Life
https://www.mdpi.com/2227-9032/9/5/504/htm
Whitney Dafoe 1
DOI: 10.3390/healthcare9050504
Abstract
A personal account from an Extremely Severe Bedridden ME/CFS patient about the experience of living with extremely severe ME/CFS. Illness progression, medical history, description of various aspects of extremely severe ME/CFS and various essays on specific experiences are included.
Full text at the link: https://www.mdpi.com/2227-9032/9/5/504/htm
Severe ME/CFS List in Brief—Summarizing My Quality of Life
- I haven’t left my room for 7 years, except when I have to go to the hospital to change my J-tube feeding tube out of medical necessity. I am only able to do this without dying by being sedated with Ativan the entire time, as well as Fentanyl and Versed during the procedure;
- I haven’t been touched by another human being without it hurting me in 7 years;
- I haven’t been able to speak for 7 years. I haven’t had a conversation with another human being in 8 years;
- I haven’t eaten a crumb of food or felt a drop of water in my mouth in 6 years. I’m alive because of nutrients being pumped into my body with machines and tubes;
- I haven’t taken a shower in 7 years. I clean the most necessary parts of myself with baby wipes every day and it absolutely exhausts me. I can’t handle having someone else clean me;
- I haven’t cut my own toenails in 7 years;
- I haven’t been able to hold or even touch my camera in 7 years (photography is my passion and my life);
- I haven’t peed standing up in 9 years. I haven’t walked to the bathroom to pee in 7 years. I pee in a urinal in bed;
- I haven’t made love to a woman in 9 years. I haven’t been sexual in any way in 5 years;
- I haven’t brushed my teeth in 6 years. It hurts my stomach, making it worse and putting my ability to tolerate the feeding tube at risk, which puts my life at risk;
- I haven’t seen a dentist in 9 years;
- I haven’t been able to tolerate the sound of another person’s voice without being sedated in 7 years. I wear heavy-duty earmuffs whenever my caregivers are in my room for the bare minimum of time. They can’t talk and have to be as quiet and gentle as possible;
- I haven’t felt like a human being in 7 years. All humanity has been taken from me by ME/CFS. I live only to continue living. There is no love, joy, passion or creation, only endless, numbered days; (See Appendix A.1)
- I fight to survive for all those living and dying in silence and darkness (see Appendix A.3).
https://www.mdpi.com/2227-9032/9/5/504/htm