I had a long, long stretch where I couldn't do my dishes. I still struggle to get dishes done because there are so many steps, and bits, and organization... no dishwasher and almost no counter space - cognitive nightmare! .............
Anyway, months and months went by and I simply could not get the dishes done. ......... It took me months to figure out that I needed a scrubber! Months.
It was so revealing for me because I understood that you can't always figure out what's wrong with what you're doing. It can be so painful and so frustrating.
Now, I have made an equally foolish but different choice. I bought a pack of scrubbers and they are all out and all over the sink and dish rack and counter. I have a new kind of disaster.
If not for the fact that the ability to think comes and goes, this would be frightening. But, it comes and goes. We are not in a downward slide. We are skidding about but we right ourselves again. We're ok.
We're ok.

Koan