The things that other Christians said did not seem to apply to me. One thing that really got me was that they said that God would not give me more than I could cope with and I knew that was wrong - it was too much. Later I found a verse that confirmed what I thought - sometimes it does get too much to bear. I just thought that God did a number on me so many times.
The early church model is very attractive and I yearn for its simplicity, the real sense of community, its loving focus on people in need, the distribution of wealth (out of love and not compulsion).