@taniaaust1 -You are not serious, right? i know that this illness brings people to desperate measures
Yes I are being serious, I choose to go there once before on the grounds of not being able to look after myself when I could of just easily accepted a bail. Im in a desperate situation cant help myself much more then I am. (there is two people.. disability minister and ombudsman, I still need to contact but Im overwhelmed by it all and very limited how much I do in a day).
We have limited choices and for some it may be the better choice out of the limited ones we have.
Jail in my mind...is the worst place to go.
It depends on just how bad the life stuff is if it is the worst place to go or not. Mental hospital worst!.
Hospital isolation wards often in jail are very quiet. Most of the time the ward was more then half empty.. well at least for my own states women prison.
Crazy people true but I only felt compassion for the two real crazy ones I got to know a bit...they truly shouldn't have been there!.
One was someone with schizophrenia (she was there for actually biting her carer, she had been diagnosed as having the mental age of an 8-9 year old, they brought her in having schizophrenic hallunications in hysterics cause she was seeing mosquitos the size of dogs. She was truly like a child.
(Badly she later was asking for her medication for her schizophrenia as it was very late.. I think it wasn't till that night they actually gave it to her. It was like when I suddenly started getting hives in jail and asked to see the nurse, the guards ignored me and didn't even enter my cell to look at that I was getting spots over my legs). Thing is right now is that I hardly are getting medical care right now any way due to lack of being able to get to doctors.
The other very crazy one had bipolar, personality disorder (BPD) and may of had Aspergers like myself (other prisioners treated her with respect as they knew she could go crazy and hurt someone but she was very gullible). She was a long termer (she'd commited a very serious crime, I cant remember now, it may of been murder, she was in the jail isolation after smashing a mirror and cutting her throat. She also set fire to her cell (bed, sheets etc) while I was there next to it.. that was quite scary till they evacuated me outside while the fire was being put out).
She was a very nice person except when her mental health stuff was really going bad. She was also having grand mal epileptic seizures up to about 6-9 times a day so was ending up smashing around her cell (she would of been getting quite bruised up). I was really worried for her health, called the guards on multiple occassions when she was having a seizure. I look upon those in jail differently after my experience, holding more understanding of the things which brought them there.
Then there was a very quiet aboriginal lady. In the states woman's prison for of not wearing a seat belt while a passenger in a car. She was from the outback, she couldn't talk one world of English or write English. I doubt she would of even know the law. No doubt some anti-black judge heard her case, she must of not had an lawyer. When there was an opportunity, I used to smile at her and she'd smile back. Some of the guards treated her different as they too thought it was very wrong she was there.
The jail had many people who shouldn't be there and even the ones who I should be there, the ones I met were nice eg a lady who commited a bank robbery. The people I met were like fairly ordinary people. No doubt TV tries to make these people look less then ordinary. I cant say how my experience would of been had I been in the normal womans area rather then locked in isolation for a near month due to being suicidal. (yeah right as if that is going to help someones mental health!)
It wasn't nice (no privacy at all and the isolation of being in a cell nearly every day all day and the boredom, they rarely let me go to the exercise yard, were the worst things other then being assulted once by a guard) but life at home is worst... trying to survive here worst. Far more stressful then being in jail.
It's an option.
There was that guy with ME who starved to death in England cause he couldnt look after himself not too long ago, jail would of been the better option for him, maybe his only survival option. It would of saved his life. Its the answer for those who have no better options who cannot care for themselves eg no family to go and live with etc with no other suitable options..
Ive been thinking about what crimes I possibly can do. Im limited in that area seeing I only get to go out with support workers and use a wheelchair when out. If I steal something, I'd hate for what my workers would think. Im currently thinking some form of public nuisance to go to jail for would be better..
eg start making a mess in the supermarket.. emptying lollies, potato chips all over the floor or something and do it till police and called and you are arrested. Im not sure how much jail time that will give me if needed.
That though could get me thrown into a mental health place as that probably would be seen as nuts rather then a jail where stealing would be sure to send me. I really don't know what is the best way about going about the ending up in jail thing.
I really hope that something in my case soon sorts out, if it doesn't, I see only two options to get out of the hell Im put in currently, suicide or jail.
I want millions of dollars so I can open a home for those with CFS. I am not going to give it to help the disease (as in, try and get more research) it would be pissed away. We need help NOW.
If I was a millionaire, I think I'd build a home for those who have ME/CFS, MS and MCS too (Ive heard that young MS people currently can end up sometimes in old folks homes), though I also do give money for research.
