Anyone else in physical discomfort 24/7?

[Dysfunkion]

@Dysfunkion Yeah with the dreams it's like whatever you were worrying about in the day can and does go wrong spectacularly.

When a couple of my gold fish died I dreamt I had forgotten to feed the fish and they where cannibalising each other. They had also mutated because of this and reproduced massively. Every draw I opened in my house had dead fish and cannibal mutant fish eating there corpses. I kept trying to clean it up and feed them but more and more zombie fish kept showing up.

Another one was when the bath was leaking through the ceiling. I dreamt that the leaking was unstoppable and was destroying the walls. I had to quickly ride into town and find the company that supplied our water to ask them to switch it off before the house collapsed.
I eventually found them and after ages going through customer service I finally meet the guy who signed the deal with my dad, like 30 years ago to supply water to our house. As I'm begging him to shut off the water he reveals to me that when making the deal with my dad, he and my dad didn't get along and he's never liked him since, and because of that he's not going to shut off water to my house and is going to let it crumble.
I don't know what to do so I hurry home and the house is just a crumbled mess on the floor, all our possesions are gone, my parents and I start crying then I wake up heart pounding out of my chest again.
The dream is just retarded. Like why didn't I just shut water off at the mains? What the fuck happened at this weird hand shake water deal with my dad and the guys who owns Severn Trent Water that made him hold a grudge for 30 years so bad that he'd let the house fall down?

I have had so so many of these stupid dreams over the past 13 years. I kinda wish I wrote them all down in to one massive dumb journal.

Yes dreams like that! Honestly we should submit them anonymously to horror movie directors cause it would provide a lot of great content. lol Mine can get very morbid. A lot of them are me forgetting something and then something really bad happening that gets blown way out of proportion. That or there is a situation going on but I'm really lost and helpless because I can't make sense of anything but the fact that something is going very wrong. I'll be trying to do a lot of basic things in the dream as it's all happening but I can't do anything right at all and then the panic gets worse. A lot of them for some reason will always involve bug infestations, just like suddenly bugs everywhere and I can't escape them all for some reason. Like you said there is also a lot of them with my living place suddenly getting destroyed or I'll find myself in my old home and everything will be all wrong in it.

Do you get one's like this though? So what will happen is I'll have a false awakening where I'll believe I woke up but I won't be in my room, I'll be in another bed (in my case it's always my bed in my old bedroom), there will be a very dark ominous feeling, I'll try to move but I can't as the feeling gets worse, and shortly after when I feel like something is about to happen I'll jolt myself awake.

 

[sb4]

@Dysfunkion I can't say I get the one where I wake up in an old bedroom though this could be because I've spent 95% of my life living in the same house.

The blowing out of proportion thing rings true with me. Once I dreamt I was having a meal in a pub I used to go to with my friend, then he decided we should just leave without paying, I was telling him no thats not right just pay but he got up and ran. The cops came and arrested me and I was like "no I can't go to prison, with my health conditions, I can't survive in there" lol then I awoke, my cardiovascular system in mass panic again.

We should start writing the spooky dreams down in an old tattered notebook and just leave them in abandoned buildings and the like.

 

[bradipa]

We should start writing the spooky dreams down in an old tattered notebook and just leave them in abandoned buildings and the like.

I like the idea, @sb4! Yes, morbid's the word that came to my mind, too, @Dysfunkion .
I don't have nightmares any more, just vivid dreams, but lots of false awakenings and lucid dreams. When I false awake, I'm often in my actual bedroom, the situation actually holds a reality check. It takes time for me to find an element that confirms I'm still asleep (all the wile knowing I most likely am).

 

[sb4]

The Clonidine turned out to be a bit of a bust. Not only did I seem to get tolerant to it after like 10 days it also just switches my symptoms up. It reduces the bounding pulse (which great) but increases heart rate in response. I guess my blood flow is being compromised which results in either or both of these responses.

I'm back to being in a horrible state unfortunately. I am in constant, high levels of, cardiovascular discomfort 24/7. A mix of bounding pulse, heart racing, palpitations, and general chest pain.

Last night I was lying still flat in bed with my head tilted down and my legs raised yet I was still light headed and had a heart rate of 90+ (complete with palpitating / pounding) all night. I slept like 3 hrs.

I've lost near 8kg involuntarily over the last month or so. I'm down to eating like 500kcals per day and everything I eat causes my heart to race and pound harder. My stomach feels like its clamed shut and constantly feels sick, no doubt due to lack of blood flow and sympathetic activation.

I even cried in front of my GP today though theres not much they can do. They are going to write to Dr Nick Gall in London and ask if I can have an earlier appointment. I was hoping they'd make me an inpatient and run some tests on my heart but no such luck.

My current strategy is to try clonidine + modafinil + propranolol. The clonidine reduces sympathetic activation throughout the body, the modafinil increases adrenergic stimulation peripherally so I get the vasoconstriction my body needs with hopefully a calmer brain. The propranolol should keep the heart rate a bit more under control and also reduce the force of my heart a bit.

I've already abandoned all the exercise I was doing as of a month ago. Now I'm focusing on spending a lot more of my day sitting and laying down. Hopefully I'll get a combination working that allows me to have some hours of the day not in this horrible amount of discomfort I'm currently in and then I can push the calories up a bit.

EDIT:
I got my medications confused. I am taking modafinil but for some reason I thought it was midodrine. Modafinil does stimulate norepinephrine (and dopamine) though. Means I need to be careful with tolerance on this as well.

For the past day or so I have felt a lot better on the Modafinil although now I'm worried about withdrawal and tolerance.

I should also note that when my symptoms where playing up bad I had a decent amount of neck pain and felt like my brainstem was inflamed. Chicken or egg?