Hi lululowry. Many UK severe ME patients are very scared of 'coming out', and the government keeping us scared makes sure no one knows we exist - so the severity of ME is hidden. Instead, the public see people (given the label 'CFS/ME') saying they cured themselves of ME in 3 days by altering their mind. (e.g. Lightning Therapy). The most absurd claim for an incurable inflammatory brain disease of course, but good enough to put on the BBC - twice. (I see, conversely the only ME patients allowed on British TV, are
ones no longer here with no voice who cannot protest).
Where are the XMRV+ patients in the UK on TV is my question?
I see doctor Oz in the USA had a
lady with XMRV seen by millions, yet in America you don't have a 'free' (paid for in tax) socialised medical system where big brother dictates
what you are, literally and thus it was allowed to be shown. In the USA, if you have money, you can see a private doctor and get basic or advanced health care depending on the payments per month. What if private medical insurance didn't exist in the USA?
If you go to ER in the USA with cardiac pain and someone calls you mentally ill (with no evidence) you can complain or sue for endangering your life. How can you complain if all ER's are run by the state - and the doctors are told you are mentally ill? Then you will get nowhere, and you will live your life (un-necessarily) as a hermit - like me - making sure you avoid angina and cardio-respiratory issues as much as possible.
Alternatively, if you survive a cardiac emergency, then the state run health system will destroy, or fail to write down your presenting symptoms. Like me then, one has the situation where one has evidence of cardiogenic shock, but no comments 'about' this. Blank, nothing, and the next day it's comments about behavioural modification again. A private health care ER cannot do this, you can expose them and you can sue them. You cannot expose the state, as you won't wake up the next day. And so you must live, as a subject, and as a peasant.
This is a form of enforced disability of the ME population, not my mind, as I have asked and demanded and protested many many times - even when I was offered a place at University, they refuse to 'play along' with me and give me medications or oxygen so I can life some form of life.
I thus see the photos of Andrea Whittemore with an oxygen line, and am not only sad for her, but terribly envious she is allowed oxygen and I am not. Yet she is an American, and American's don't live in a pseudo communist state like the UK, where we are watched. (1 in 78 people in the UK in 2008
came under state surveillance).
When I got to ER, I rarely go in, I take tranquilizers I stock pile by lying that I will attend hospital appointments ( I have a 'deal' I can have 2mg Diazepam to go in the ambulance). I lie because I am not allowed to have the medications in a normal pack (e.g. pack of 20+ 5mg tablets), despite being diagnosed with Dysautonomia which means any 'stress' or viruses can induce convulsions and dangerously high blood pressure (hypertension) that requires these drugs. Anyone with convulsions or Dysautonomia will tell you, during an attack - even 10mg won't stop things, so 2mg is useless. So for 2mg to work, I have to never leave my front door to wait until the next 6 month hospital appointment where I am 'meant' to be going to the hospital in the ambulance, where I am only then allowed 2mg tablets.
Stupidly, they now tell me my breathing muscles are too weak to take these medications, hence this is the reason (I am now told) I am restricted. My reply is, where are the lung function/tread mill tests? The reply is, I am not allowed them. I show a 87% oxygen rate with a $1000+ machine. They tell me the machine is faulty, and refuse oxygen for these attacks I get. What would happen to me if I posted this letter on here, or anywhere? I know what, so I never do it - and thus, they escape. They are not questioned and the esteemed 'Professor' is clapped instead of told they shouldn't do this to people. Discrimination against ME patients allows this to happen, which is why they are discriminatory in the first place. Just as people were in Western democracies against women, gays and people who aren't white. Only laws stopped people's malicious behaviour towards minorities. But malicious behaviour against ME CFS patients is not only allowed, it's sanctioned as the correct 'method' to deal with 'people like us'. Medical apartheid, nothing less.
I thus need a few tablets to protect my life and need to 'obtain' them, and make sure I walk nowhere to trigger these attacks. This has gotten much worse, since the 2009 NICE guidelines on CFS/ME, which states that CBT/GE/Pacing are the only 'proven' therapies for CFS/ME. My new doctor read those guidelines, and indeed must follow them. When I get chest pain, I have to take a tranquilizer, and I get driven in a distressed state to ER and then sit in the car with my parents or sit in the waiting room and dare not check in, unless the pain is extreme. That's what brain washing does to you, I am brain washed to live in fear (because it started before I was an adult). I am refused any cardio tests, as these were done, ready? 6 years ago. Laughable in the USA where you pay your $2,000 for all the tests for symptoms affecting us now, not 6 years ago.
In America (correct me if I am wrong), it is illegal to steal a child or adult and lock them in a mental hospital unless there is evidence of mental disease that harms the child, or could harm other people or a felony has been committed. In the UK, you can be detained with a clean mental health record, for the crime of having severe ME and not being mobile. I was detained as a 'guest', after experiencing heart failure, and I was an adult. This is what they do to kids,
see this.
So yes, ME, CFS or whatever the label given can be and often is terrible, but it's more terrible when you have no human rights because of socialised (politicised) health care systems that order your abuse as a form of therapy. When you know this is planned and directed by those in the Military (E.g. Wessely) and you then meet his people face to face when the door is locked, then you really know the face of evil. A face that refuses pain medications when in terrible pain, and even cardiac pain.
I'm sure lots of others would like to chip in here, but many of them are dead or just mentally/cognitively destroyed. I dream of being an American and having rights, even if if was, the right to purchase a pack of pain tablets or other tablets for diagnosed disease/heart arrthmia's would be there - but that isn't possible for me. I've now got acute agoraphobia (due to Dysautonomia/POTS) but it's only so bad because of the fear. I am never left alone, and my parents haven't been away or had a break for 15 years. If I call (your version of 911) it will state I have ''CFS/ME'' which is not a cardiac disorder, despite me being diagnosed with SVT and being in cardiac care unit with ME in the past, is states in my medical records I was not admitted for this but for psychological problems and personality change.
This is how corrupt the UK is, when they 'find' someone with genuine severe ME, who cannot possibly recover with CBT/GE/Pacing Anti Depressant regime. What do they do with me? This is how one ends up in hospital for over 1/2 year. 1/2 year is a long time not to brush your teeth, wash your hair, or get help. This happens because to help someone who 'believes' they have ME - only makes them worse. And so it goes on, be it 1980, 1990, 2000, or now - 2010. It never ever ends, and there is no escape as even now I know the truth (I have XMRV) the government military psychiatrist, Simon Wessely states XMRV does not exist here. That is the 'facts' and thus patients who are positive, do not exist.
We know (UK patients) Sophia Mirza got her door kicked down by the Police and she was dragged out of her room and locked up, months later she died. None of us want that happening to us. It's a warning to us, and so us ME patients in the UK who are peeing in bed pans, or getting molested by care workers (I am not joking) say nothing, because we wan't to live. And so XMRV does not exist, because the patients contribute to it's non existence. And ME patients, contribute to the non existence of ME, because of the same reasons.
To get back on track about the Invest in ME conference. This blogger guy's blog who is getting miffed about Huber well he has a reason to - on patient's behalf over this side of the pond. Her words, and her (apparent) TV interview will be used against severe ME patients who have tubes coming out of parts of their body where tubes aren't meant to be - whilst on no correct medications as giving medications increases 'entrenched beliefs' on a physical cause - according to Psychiatrists.
Anything that gives ammunition to people in denial about XMRV or the plight of severe ME patients is very very bad news, hence the Huber speech should not have been directed at an audience of many vulnerable and sick people. She could have waited for another venue, or had her work published, but she had to go 'reveal' it - and the powers that be will soon print this in the newspapers. (Simon Wessely who states ''Me is the
belief one is suffering from an illness called ME'', is Science advisor to the British Media). Huber may be innocent, but what she has done will have negative consequences for patient's health.