I became ill in my early 20s and now I'm heading toward 40 with my health getting worse and worse all the time. I think I am now too unwell to cope with a relationship or even making a child! But I would have really loved to have a kid.
It's another massive layer that adds to me feeling my life has no purpose or meaning. It's on my mind a lot (that's why I'm writing this in the early hours) but I've never really spoken about it to anyone. I try to avoid children and people with children, videos/movies/stories about parents and their children because it makes me so sad to be missing out on such a huge life event against my will.
Of all the things this illness has taken and all the potential stuff that I've lost before I even could have it, this is the hardest.
It's another massive layer that adds to me feeling my life has no purpose or meaning. It's on my mind a lot (that's why I'm writing this in the early hours) but I've never really spoken about it to anyone. I try to avoid children and people with children, videos/movies/stories about parents and their children because it makes me so sad to be missing out on such a huge life event against my will.
Of all the things this illness has taken and all the potential stuff that I've lost before I even could have it, this is the hardest.