I got very sick around 2011. I was mostly housebound and had chronic inflammation in my brain that made each and every day a miserable ordeal to get through. I suffered terribly for years of not working or being able to socialize, not even able to read too much as my brain didn't think clearly. One night around 2015 I saw the following video on the air of a local Jewish TV channel:
^^^ This explains:
While I had a hard understanding this video due to my brain fog at the time, I decided that I wanted to understand it and with great determination set forth to study kabbalah, the science of connection.
I have studied for 5 years since then and it has completely changed my life and also the way I think about CFS/ME... from a severe curse and a life of isolation... to a "descent".... where I reached a very low place to develop a deep desire and true prayer for help that actually raised me higher than before my illness. It brought me to connection and spirituality.
I came to see my illness as a blessing in that if I had been busy making money at my old career and having lots of fun, I would never never learned about kabbalah or discovered why I was here. I would just have been distracted and running in a rat race of temporary, fleeting pleasures.
^^^ This explains:
- why we are born
- purpose of life is
- why life has so much suffering
While I had a hard understanding this video due to my brain fog at the time, I decided that I wanted to understand it and with great determination set forth to study kabbalah, the science of connection.
I have studied for 5 years since then and it has completely changed my life and also the way I think about CFS/ME... from a severe curse and a life of isolation... to a "descent".... where I reached a very low place to develop a deep desire and true prayer for help that actually raised me higher than before my illness. It brought me to connection and spirituality.
I came to see my illness as a blessing in that if I had been busy making money at my old career and having lots of fun, I would never never learned about kabbalah or discovered why I was here. I would just have been distracted and running in a rat race of temporary, fleeting pleasures.
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