When I was 17 i did the lightning process with Live Landemark. It didn't help me a bit. However, it made my family and friends expect me to just 'snap out of it' and be well, to be able to get back to my normal life. it made me push myself beyond anything, it made me struggle through school and the worst years of my life. and it gave me so much anxiety about my illness, feeling so guilty that i wasn't able to make my self well, feeling so bad and wrong and dirty for being ill. I've struggled with this feeling ever scince, and it's only after reading on forums like these and talking with other ME patients that i've started to let go of the guilt and fear that I was doing something wrong. The ME community is not harmful, I've seen so much kindness and generosity, and love and compassion, so many inspiring people that are willing to talk openly and truthful. It seems that Live Landemark finds people talking abouth things openly scary.. Well I think THAT is scary.
I'm 21 now and thinking about how me and the other teens in my group where brainwashed into thinking it was all our fault makes me so angry. LP has been the big thing in norway for ME for many years, and I can't tell anybody about having ME without being asked about doing LP. And even after I tell them that Yes I have done it and NO please don't ever suggest it to anyone ever again, they still believe in the papers. People really do believe that the papers tell the truth, and a true and nuanced picture of reality... I wish!
I do not want to believe that Live has bad intentions. I know she is a person with a family and she might believe that she is fighting for sick people, trying to make a better world. it might be. But I am very wary of anyone not supporting open discussion. Manipulating articles, bad use of reasearch, trying to take away the crediblility of patients that disagree with her... There is just so many wrong things happening here, I can't believe she's aloud to keep doing it.
And even if the process worked, even if every single thing she says is true, her actions is still not acceptable. This is not how you treat sick and suppressed people.
I wish I was able to word this better. I'm just so confused. how is this real? how do people not see how incredibly wrong this is? why do my friends and family that have seen me struggle for years, that know how this illness works and how it has stolen my life, how can they still support LP and live landemark.... i don't get it.