MariaMagdalena
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Hey everyone! I was going to post this to the forum reserved for alternate or overlapping diagnosis, but there was no heading there for this so I guess I'm putting it into the general circulation. If I missed a more appropriate placement, feel free to move it, mods.
I have recently been making the rounds to different specialists in order to rule out everything else that could be going on with me either with, or causing, or other than CFS/ME. This was never done for me before (though I've been diagnosed with CFS for 8 years). The doctor I went to just went down the diagnostic tree and saw I fit and that was that. I have CFS. As I've worsened dramatically in the last year and a half, I realized I really needed to investigate fully what is going on and not settle for CFS as my fate until everything else could be ruled out.
This week I went to a Rheumatologist. I was fortunate to get a Rheumatologist who is very old (over 80) and thinks like doctors used to think (plus has a ton of experience).
The first thing I said when I met him was that I was here to just check all the boxes of rule-outs, that I fully did not expect him to find anything. He asked me a bunch of questions and when he started asking about dryness, I was like, umm. yes, yes, yes.. but I thought I was just weird about certain things. I had no idea that:
the fact that my eyes feel like pins are being shoved through them, blurring so bad I can't read through my bifocals regularly, and they burn constantly
I can barely sweat
I've had repeated instances of corneal abrasion while sleeping through many years
Before I got a humidified CPAP machine I couldn't sleep because of plugged nose as soon as I laid down the need to wake up and drink water many times a night.
I haul a water bottle everywhere I go and can't get in a conversation for more than a couple of minutes without sipping water the whole time.
I can't eat a meal. Period. without something to drink.
I'm like a vampire when it comes to the sun.
My teeth always have cavities and I've lost 3 of them
These are just a few things that are connected to one probable diagnosis.
Sjogren's Syndrome
All of these things have just been minor annoyances that I was just used to as "me" and they pale so much in comparison to debilitating, never ending "flu", and brain fog to the point where I feel like I must be borderline dementia.
Also I discounted all of these dry symptoms because I've been on antidepressants since I was 30, continuously and I assumed this dryness was all from that. I've pared the AD's down to only 1 tricyclic at this point, and thought the dryness shouldn't be as bad as it is, but still...
I asked if I needed antibody tests to confirm that I have SS and I loved what he said. He first told me of a patient who came to him after the University refused to diagnose her because she tested negative for the 2 antibodies they test for. She came to this doctor and he diagnosed her. He said, "How arrogant are we? Yes, we know there is antibody A and B. But what if there is a C and D and E that we just haven't discovered yet? I prefer to diagnose my patients the way good old Sjogren did back in the day, but listening to them and asking questions."
So, I don't know if have SS AND CFS/ME or if the CFS dx is wrong?
He put me on a medication called hydroxychloroquine (Plaquenil) which is a milder immunosuppressive. He said I may not see any improvement for 6 months.
But something quite shocking has happened to me in the 3 days I've been on it.
First, Know that at this point, I am homebound and any trips outside the house will put me into PEM. Even being on the computer too long, or taking a shower puts me in PEM.
Yesterday I went over my limit to go to a family birthday gathering. While there I got in a nasty row with my unstable adult daughter and the rest of the family attacked me for being "unkind". The fact that my daughter is off the rails these days and somebody needs to confront her was brushed aside. My "excuse" of being sick was just that. If I am so sick that I have to be unkind, then maybe I should have stayed home. Forget the fact that this woman is unraveling and has an autistic child to raise, and I can't help her. Oh. That's an EXCUSE again. I was told by her that I have no right to care about my grandson or say anything at all about his wellbeing because I never help with him and am just selfish. Not sick.
Ok... gone off topic, but I say all that to say this:
Today I have not crashed yet. I keep looking at the clock and expecting to come but it hasn't yet and it is not midafternoon.
I spent the rest of yesterday after the argument crying and yelling on into the evening. What happened combined with the relentless fatigue/malaise/brain fog miasma 24/7 for months just caved me in entirely. I just couldn't take it anymore and I wanted to die.
Maybe it is too soon to write this. Maybe it will hit tonight or tomorrow, but I SHOULD by all rights be bedbound now. I have been a hair's breadth away from it for the last month.
Maybe I should be devastated to be diagnosed with an incurable disease, but if this is for real it is better than having ME because at least they know some about it and there are available meds that can help.
This diagnosis needs to be ruled out!
Know also that it isn't simple to diagnose. Many times tests are normal. My inflammation tests all came back normal.
I have recently been making the rounds to different specialists in order to rule out everything else that could be going on with me either with, or causing, or other than CFS/ME. This was never done for me before (though I've been diagnosed with CFS for 8 years). The doctor I went to just went down the diagnostic tree and saw I fit and that was that. I have CFS. As I've worsened dramatically in the last year and a half, I realized I really needed to investigate fully what is going on and not settle for CFS as my fate until everything else could be ruled out.
This week I went to a Rheumatologist. I was fortunate to get a Rheumatologist who is very old (over 80) and thinks like doctors used to think (plus has a ton of experience).
The first thing I said when I met him was that I was here to just check all the boxes of rule-outs, that I fully did not expect him to find anything. He asked me a bunch of questions and when he started asking about dryness, I was like, umm. yes, yes, yes.. but I thought I was just weird about certain things. I had no idea that:
the fact that my eyes feel like pins are being shoved through them, blurring so bad I can't read through my bifocals regularly, and they burn constantly
I can barely sweat
I've had repeated instances of corneal abrasion while sleeping through many years
Before I got a humidified CPAP machine I couldn't sleep because of plugged nose as soon as I laid down the need to wake up and drink water many times a night.
I haul a water bottle everywhere I go and can't get in a conversation for more than a couple of minutes without sipping water the whole time.
I can't eat a meal. Period. without something to drink.
I'm like a vampire when it comes to the sun.
My teeth always have cavities and I've lost 3 of them
These are just a few things that are connected to one probable diagnosis.
Sjogren's Syndrome
All of these things have just been minor annoyances that I was just used to as "me" and they pale so much in comparison to debilitating, never ending "flu", and brain fog to the point where I feel like I must be borderline dementia.
Also I discounted all of these dry symptoms because I've been on antidepressants since I was 30, continuously and I assumed this dryness was all from that. I've pared the AD's down to only 1 tricyclic at this point, and thought the dryness shouldn't be as bad as it is, but still...
I asked if I needed antibody tests to confirm that I have SS and I loved what he said. He first told me of a patient who came to him after the University refused to diagnose her because she tested negative for the 2 antibodies they test for. She came to this doctor and he diagnosed her. He said, "How arrogant are we? Yes, we know there is antibody A and B. But what if there is a C and D and E that we just haven't discovered yet? I prefer to diagnose my patients the way good old Sjogren did back in the day, but listening to them and asking questions."
So, I don't know if have SS AND CFS/ME or if the CFS dx is wrong?
He put me on a medication called hydroxychloroquine (Plaquenil) which is a milder immunosuppressive. He said I may not see any improvement for 6 months.
But something quite shocking has happened to me in the 3 days I've been on it.
First, Know that at this point, I am homebound and any trips outside the house will put me into PEM. Even being on the computer too long, or taking a shower puts me in PEM.
Yesterday I went over my limit to go to a family birthday gathering. While there I got in a nasty row with my unstable adult daughter and the rest of the family attacked me for being "unkind". The fact that my daughter is off the rails these days and somebody needs to confront her was brushed aside. My "excuse" of being sick was just that. If I am so sick that I have to be unkind, then maybe I should have stayed home. Forget the fact that this woman is unraveling and has an autistic child to raise, and I can't help her. Oh. That's an EXCUSE again. I was told by her that I have no right to care about my grandson or say anything at all about his wellbeing because I never help with him and am just selfish. Not sick.
Ok... gone off topic, but I say all that to say this:
Today I have not crashed yet. I keep looking at the clock and expecting to come but it hasn't yet and it is not midafternoon.
I spent the rest of yesterday after the argument crying and yelling on into the evening. What happened combined with the relentless fatigue/malaise/brain fog miasma 24/7 for months just caved me in entirely. I just couldn't take it anymore and I wanted to die.
Maybe it is too soon to write this. Maybe it will hit tonight or tomorrow, but I SHOULD by all rights be bedbound now. I have been a hair's breadth away from it for the last month.
Maybe I should be devastated to be diagnosed with an incurable disease, but if this is for real it is better than having ME because at least they know some about it and there are available meds that can help.
This diagnosis needs to be ruled out!
Know also that it isn't simple to diagnose. Many times tests are normal. My inflammation tests all came back normal.