Hi Brian,
My name is Sarah. I recently applied to the NIH study this past month. I got ME 4 years ago, my last year of Medical school. My Life story pretty much fits ME criteria perfectly. I was a 2 sport collegiate athlete who went to school for 8 years and now I can not work after all my training nor do mild exercise without debilitating symptoms afterward or a relapse for days. On top of post exertional fatigue, I have all the classic symptoms presented by the ICC yet it seems like NIH recruiters are trying to find things to exclude me and making it extremely difficult to get in.
I do not understand who gets in if I am having this much trouble. I only got the diagnosis in the permutable time because of my medical knowledge base allowing me to to look further into the pathophysiology of my personal symptoms. My school was affiliated with Harvard so we had the same professors. I started medical school in 2011 and we did not learn anything about ME! If I did not learn about it in 2011 at what is considered the highest ranked medical school in the world, I would assume it is not in the curriculum for medical providers in classes prior or at other medical schools.
Then there is the problem of documentation. Just like they said in the movie unrest, we have to be careful what we say. I always under simplified my symptoms and tried to limit to the worst one or two at each time of the visit because of fear of being looked at crazy. The misknowlege and misinformation about ME makes provieders become biased towards psych if listed all to the severity without lab test indicating a problem!. I do not understand how they are getting people in the study who are not self diagnosed within five years and with perfect documentation? There has to be some analytic thinking to determine because it does not seem fair. Personally, I refused to go to Doctor after Doctor because I knew they did not know: I knew they did not learn about this and I did not want to be labeled psych. I was biased into knowing what Doctors thought and wrote without the patient knowing because Of being on the other side. How did people get accurate documentation explaining everything without being labeled psych? I tried to minimize my symptoms and triggers (I would say only occurs, or omit a lot) because I did not want to be considered crazy when I went to specialist. I would try to target the symptoms the specialist concentrated on as well. I probably did try to minimize more than most but am still curious how people in the study got accurate documentation in limited time of appointments every time without being labeled psych?
My biggest issue was documentation by my Primary care. He is old school and documented everything in the HPI (History of present illness) and left the ROS (review of systems) as is. When the ROS is not filled out, it automatically states denies everything by system like denies fatigue ect..... even if he put fatigue in the HPI. It is very clear that he just did not fill it out and it was not that I denied it. I did end up going to my primary care to talk about this and he is in the process of trying to add addendum to the notes. I also was able to get some documentation from specialist I have gone to so hopefully all this extra documentation if looked at together will end up working. I am fearful they will nitpit the fact that I did not show proof of all symptoms at every visit instead of viewing all the documentation and my personal story as a whole still though? This does not affect me as much because fatigue is documented on every other note, but I am also concerned they value fatigue more than any other symptom? It seems like people can easily get in if they consistently have fatigue on documentation despite the importance of other symptoms.
I am in complete despair at this point. I do know some treatments that could help me but pretty much refuse to try anything that would inhibit clear accurate results of test like the ones at NIH. My personality and background will not let me do anything that may sway results without knowing. I know what my test would look like but can not get test like that anywhere else. I need to know! hahah. I need my suffering to have a purpose as well. Being part of a research like this where my results could help provide knowledge for others is so important to me.
I just got nominated to be on the board for CFSAC as a voting member to meet with congress to provide advice and recommendations for the ME community. I would appreciate the knowledge about this stuff for the purpose of this position as well.
I am not bashing or disagreeing with NIH's method of inclusion just confused, curious, and frustrated considering the circumstances. I know you may not have answers to some of these questions but Any questions you could answer or advice you can give would be greatly appreciated. I really want to get in.
SARAH, please note that CFSAC has no role involving Congress. CFSAC exists to report to/advise the Secretary of Department of Health and Human Services. It is one among a number of such advisory committees. Thus, it is part of the Executive Branch, not the legislative. People who have served on CFSAC have found that their opinions are rarely sought after or acted upon by HHS, let alone by Congress. If you seriously wish to impart information to Congress the direct route would be to start by cultivating the health aides to your representative and Senators. Maybe they will take a teeny bit more note if you are on CFSAC, but they would take lots more note if you could somehow deliver votes and campaign finance. Otherwise you'll have to rely on saying something persuasive.
I have had ME for 29 years now, and also happen to be well acquainted with the American political system and its participants from a variety of perspectives.
Let me offer you some valuable advice; if you have access to treatments that will make you healthier, you are nuts not to undertake them. Don't worry about queering the pitch for the NIH study or other studies. Getting into the NIH study is not an accomplishment or an entrée to much that is valuable, like getting into Harvard or Stanford or about 1,000 other schools, colleges, universities, institutes, centers, libraries and sports competitions. Nor will it be as enjoyable, nor provide durable credentials. I got into Harvard many years ago. Some of the nicest people I have ever met were people I met there. I still value many as friends. I learned a great deal, and had my eyes opened to much that is important, beautiful, or otherwise worth knowing about. The libraries are fabulous. Some of the buildings are world class architecture, and many of the settings are lovely.
None of this will be true of getting into the NIH trial. Nor is it anything like cancer trials that benefit participants via access to treatments. You will get a free trip to Washington DC and room and board in the city, but if you get well instead you can earn money to pay for a much nicer trip that will be more fun.
From what you say it sounds like you are still hopeful of joining the trial. Do not let that uncertain prospect divert you from seeking health -- the Lord's most glorious gift to humankind.
As your unwelcoming experience at the hands of NIH to date testifies, Dr. Nath is not conducting a trial of ME qua ICC. It is more a fatigue-oriented sort of thing. Are you, like Groucho Marx, determined to join only the country club that does not welcome you?
Should I have been misled, and should this be the greatest trial of Ramsay-ite ICC ME since whatever, don't worry about having taken treatments. This trial and others in the field will all be run by big boys and big girls who are more than capable of making statistical adjustments in the event that 1. it seems propitious to place you in a trial, and 2. you shock everyone by returning to health.