Margib told me I should post this on here. 
I have a new article up on empowher.com called Aphasia and the Loss of Language
I have a new article up on empowher.com called Aphasia and the Loss of Language
As far as I know Aspasia is not connected to this condition we share ... but then so many things are a mystery connected with cfs, I wouldn't want to try to say for sure.
I have had experiences with Aphasia off and on throughout my illness, over some of the simplest, most astounding things sometimes. It is something probably most -- maybe all? -- of us have dealt with at one time or another.
Thank you, Jody, for bringing up this important symptom!
Substituting the wrong word, anomic aphasia, embarrasses and frightens me when speaking to another, because I am afraid they will think I am crazy or demented--that is, more demented than I am. What I am having is "technical difficulties"! I try to correct my mistake quickly, to move on quickly--
In general, being slow now to retrieve and express thoughts, I am not operating at the same speed as most others. What I find is that others are apt to react impatiently and to try to spur me on (as if I were a slow, lazy horse). But I can't go faster, and the pressure, plus my attempts to speed up, take away from the communication in various ways.
I find I speak, in these circumstances, with canned thoughts and expressions. Trying to go faster than I can, a whole conversation can pass inauthentically like this. At the end, I am drained for hours, and yet nothing of value, in my view, has been communicated.
My conversations, I should explain, are not with people I see all the time as I live alone, but with friends or relatives I only see very occasionally. So these people haven't been around me that much and therefore, haven't been "trained"!
I will have to try to explain my condition, this part of it anyway, better than I have. I seldom try since my experience is that people either don't get it, or if they seem to, don't adjust their own style to work with mine. I think I need to persist!
Thank you for this recognition of a significant difficulty. It helps to put it on the social map. From here it is easier to act. This is empowering.
Cecelia