Also before that one started I knew it was coming and I actually felt dread then.
@CantThink - "dread" is part of the feeling I experience either just before or during and after.
>Do you feel as if you are staring during SPS? I seem to be stuck in the 'tunnel', staring straight ahead. If I get another one where my mum is around I'm going to tell her to look into my eyes and see if there's anyone home as I don't know if it would look like I'm conscious (I am) or not. <
No, I don't feel as if I'm staring, but there is maybe some "tunnel" feeling. I've always been alone when they've happened. My impression is that I would be able to speak but maybe slowly and with long pauses because of the diversion of full consciousness.
One of the reasons I am loathe to consult the GP is because I think describing them is so hard and they sound a bit ridiculous - I have had normal deja vu before and it was nothing like this.
When I tell my doctors about them it is in the context of a list of many other symptoms. I tell them I get simple partial seizures occasionally and describe my particular experience of them. You don't need to convince them, just give them the facts.
It is really interesting though. How long have you had M.E.? Is your illness progressive? It seems good that although you've had the horrible seizures for such a long time, yours are staying infrequent and not getting worse.
I have had post-viral/post-encephalitic disease since 1979 but all kinds of new symptoms started to emerge after 1997. At that point it became progressive.
Prior to that my major symptoms were PEM and memory loss and some cognitive issues. The only other physical symptoms that were pathologic in nature, as I recall, affected my skin. I was experiencing depression for a period of time also, for the usual reasons of misdiagnosis/ not being able to get a diagnosis or recognition of my symptoms, loss of professional opportunities, friends, social life, income. I'm not sure if a Dx of post-encephalitic syndrome would have fit better than ME during that time:I did not have any pain, neuropathic, autoimmune symptoms or patterns of symptoms, and homeostasis was not an issue except as it related to PEM.
I am not sure when I first experienced this symptom because I was used to odd symptoms and it was easier to keep track after I discovered what it was and the name of it, which was less than 10 years ago.