I wasn't sure to mention this or not as it is not to do with my visit to KDM as thread is about, but I suppose it is to do with treatment, and a few people have commented on my 'Can't Stop Crying' status update, so I will relate here anyway - and I need a bit of a rant ! Ha!
On Tuesday, I had an appointment with an Infectious Disease specialist in hopes of him signing a referral so I could get homecare IV treatment through my insurance co. I had huge doubts about how successful this would be. I got plenty of responses giving me mixed messages. Some said it has been done on odd occasions to give it a shot. I kept changing my mind on whether to go or not, and eventually decided no, until about 2 hours before appt at 1.30 still in bed so got up, got ready and decided not much to lose.
So I went anyway against my better judgement which I wish I had listened to. It was a disaster! Horrendous experience! I wasn't expecting much when I went in and kinda knew it would be a waste of time and more money.
First thing off, he totally dismissed my Infectolab tests, and barely looked at the rest.
Even stated I didn't have Lyme, while shaking the infectolab sheet in the air. But admitted something wrong with me, could be viral or bacterial! Just something!
He talked and talked and talked with his prepared speil on lyme and ticks etc. I couldn't get a word in edge ways. Would not listen to me, I tried to point him to CD57 result, my crazy super cytokines, gut stuff, exercise test, pointed out have severe hearing loss from this. Whenever I tried to explain or persuade, just ignored, didn't want to know.
He was quite arrogant and unpleasant, especially when I refused more testing. I was polite explained had them already, spent 3 grand on them, don't need or want more. But kept banging on about this antibody test, I couldn't remember if I had it or not, some came back negative.
He even scribbled all over my notes and reports from KDM, circling things, crossing things out - I was getting livid!
When explained didn't want doxy as he offered, cos of my gut issues I din't want orals. IV's better for me.
I also said LTT is better test, more reliable and relevant not the one he is pushing. He said there is a reason it is not used in this country, to which I said 'It's new test, takes time to change etc'
He really disliked being disagreed with or argued back at, even though I was calm and polite, he stated he was the professional here, he was trained not me. I said I had to train and educate myself as no one would give me any information.
He looked down on us completely for having an opinion . Didn't like being talked back to.
I also mentioned that Lady I met who got even longer long term IV than I was looking for, and scoffed at idea as if a fantasy.
I actually started to cry, and once I started, I couldn't stop, (in fact I kept on crying the whole car journey home and on and off rest of day) my mum dealt with him from then on.
It was very upsetting experience. He is not the option for me. He can't offer what I require. I knew this going in of course. But went worse than imagined and I wasn't even expecting anything good or useful from it.
I am not sure why I got so upset, I mean I have been treated worse before, but think I have been softened by experiences with KDM, now having a brilliant minded and caring doctor who 'listens'.
I had forgotten the horrors of what normal usual doctors are like.
I just kept thinking as I was crying,' I'm so sick, My life has been destroyed by this long enough, my future hangs in the balance, Why won't anyone help'.
But no point messing around with clueless guys 'trying' but not knowing what to do. I do have other options here
So it seems, I will be sticking with original plans, and heading to Himmunitas for treatment in August.
Onwards and upwards from here, I spent a lot of time trying to get this done here, but putting it behind me now.
A waste of 100euros, but nothing lots of choc and my fav pizza takeaway and puppy cuddles didn't solve.