Hello,I couldnt read your whole post because the size of the type was, for some reason, jarring and anxiety producing, like being repeatedly yelled at ..... I think I got the gist, tho ....
Yes, I also get waves of battle-fatigue that leave me wondering why I keep trying, fighting, researching, trying some more ..... tiresome, I know.
Thu time and trial Ive learned that this is a temporary condition, and that if I give into it fully I'll be totally lost. So I don't. I focus on gratitude, the temporary nature of despair, and anything external that distracts me if only for a moment.
It doesn;t sound silly at all @Wolfcub. I'm a HUGE, firm, devoted believer in the power of gratitude, however small the thing you;re grateful for may be.
Gratitude feeds some ephemeral part of the soul, where despair and self-pity suck the air out of it and leave it in bleak, increasing darkness.
Some days I can only manage being grateful for the next lungful of air, for the beauty of any small thing in my periphery that catches my eye, for the PR site that gives me access to research and companionship, for the fractious laptop that gives me that access ....
Actually, yes, Drs DO have access to those tests. They just prefer to rely on the lazy approach of only evaluating your TSH which isn't a function of the thyroid at all, but rather the pineal gland.
Do a little research and figure out what tests might be helpful, beyond a FULL thyroid panel, which would include free T3, freeT4, antibodies, etc, and should be the automatic action of any GP or PCP with half a brain and an actualized conscience.
Sorry for the vent. Some things just piss me off
Im sorry my original post caused you that. I’m guessing you mean the type style rather than the way I wrote it as that wouldn’t be my intention to sound like I was yelling haha.
Gratitude definitely helps and I do Chung my blessing daily, I just need to get back to gratitude journaling.
Thank you for your reply.