You have such a good attitude about everything
I promise that is not always true. Also, I am fortunate to live in a sort of fantasy land where we ave chosen not to surround ourselves by negative family members and people. It's just very mindful. Before I got sick, we worked with kids that came from "not the best home situations" (trying to be tactful), so that kind of gives a different perspective on things. I saw one of those moms take a closed fist swing at a kid and I promise my attitude was less than perfect then
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. I have days when I feel sorry for myself, I just try not to stay there long.
This, along with the lack of balance, makes me look like I am drunk.
Yes, I say I look like a drunk toddler. I have noticed people watching me when I walk now. The ones who know me, I think are used to me weaving and stumbling, so they probably are trying to be ready for a change of course if I suddenly come in their direction.
I always wonder what the strangers think though.
Last night, I had a narrow miss with a very heavy commercial door, a fountain, and a wall - all in the same building, on the same bathroom trip.
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We also joke that I can trip over a line in floor like nobody's business. With hardwoods, that leaves a lot of tripping to be done.
More dramatic has been the blurred vision that seems to come out of nowhere. It is almost like my eyes suddenly stop adjusting normally. And that is followed by dizziness.
That is how I was describing double vision to my hub before my neuro exam when I could no longer deny it was frank double vision. I think it began subtly and I didn't realize it at first. That happens with glaucoma patients - some go blind so gradually they never notice until it's too late.
And, ditto on the dizziness plus slight nausea.
That does not seem like a mainstream MG symptom
after what happened last year with the neurologist telling my family there was nothing wrong with me, I can’t afford to tell them about these new symptoms—they would never believe me.
I am amazed at the number of people with family members that live with someone and see them everyday, yet believe the docs when they say "nothing wrong." There IS something wrong, that doc was just unable to find it.
I have thought about asking the doctor to refer me for physical therapy
I forgot to tell the neuro about me flunking PT. I could do the exercise maybe in the first 2-3 tries, but then 4-10 were a no go bc my muscles would stop working right. I figured it was bc I was diagnosed as "fat, lazy, and out of shape', but I think knowing what I know now, it may have been neuromuscular. The PT said she had never had a patient flunk out, but I was clearly fatiguing so fast that she was scared to continue therapy.
Could you try there? I know it's far, but....
I can't do the plane thing so I have to be able to get there by car. The last plane trip I took was not good and I don;t think I could deal with all the airline drama these days.
You may be able to get a doc recommendation from one of the MG facebook groups. Maybe you'll even find one closer to home. A neuromuscular specialist may be an option if not MG.