@NelliePledge I am sorry about your having to retire. Hopefully it won't be too hard financially and your health will certainly get better from it.
As for me, I am working hard on trying to accept my disability, but I am not there yet. It's a constant battle with myself. I am a type A personality, as many pwME are, and not working is so very, very hard. The guilt, the constant thought of being a burden to society, the lack of goals and repressed ambition, my body transforming because I mostly sit all day, all of this is driving me towards depression. Also having to fight so hard to be recognized as disabled and keep my income has been taking a toll on me from the beginning. Where does this end ?
I am lucky to have a very competent and kind therapist helping me through this. And PR, of course. Sometimes I think I just can't keep doing this. What's the point ?