I'm acknowledging the grief and empathizing, and along with that, just to reflect, you are a kind thoughtful person and I think that a partner and close friends, at least definitely close friends but I hope partner too, might be in your future. The children part... Gosh I don't know what comforting words I could say for that. That eats me up inside thinking that may not happen for me. I see myself adopting eventually if I can't have kids myself but... If that is something you wish for, then there might be other ways to have meaningful relationships with kids, when you hopefully get a place where being more social is possible (I think you will). I see you having deeper relationships and joy in your life in the future, in maybe unexpected ways. It's all the therapy work you've done/will do too that makes me think that. And the fact that you have a deep intention for it now. I hope anyway. For both of us. All of us. I'm always here to talk in our pm conversation.