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Medical Mafia needs to die via this virus.
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Back for my yearly update in this thread I started a decade back.
Not doing so hot. No idea what's wrong, but I'm down to 100 pounds at 5'5 & 1/2.
I'm shaking uncontrollably in my upper torso, head, & neck though my hands are fairly even, & the shaking comes on 5 or 6 times a day, like if I'm standing at the kitchen sink after I wake up, I look like a wet Chihuahua. It's not terribly bad, but noticeable enough to be embarrassed about it in public, & people comment. I can't take photos anymore unless I rest the camera on a surface.
This might be what's called "Essential Tremor." I think I remember my Dad's mother used to shake her head. She was in her 70s, though. I'm 61, though I read it often attacks those 60+. It is what it is. With zero cash & no health insurance, in other words, as a typical American, there's no a lot I can do but watch & wait. My blood panel a year ago was fine. Also did the poop sample & all came up roses.
Having whittled down to a hundred, for no apparent reason, I can't help but feel like the Reaper's is on my tail. I eat excellent, nutritious vegan food, grow some of it myself, & cook from scratch most meals. I've deliberately gone out of my way to stuff my thin face with moronic food like frozen tarts, cookies, nutritional shakes, vitamin packets, anything & everything as caloric as I can get it.
Anyway, I'm overly physically active looking after feral cats & gardening & it's been a stupidly stressful year filled with several deaths, job losses, a still-dead car, housing insecurity, dental drama, & a very difficult 87 year old Narcissist for a mother who just lost her partner.
Also, Covid finally, in November, '22. Sick for 3 weeks. Took Paxlovid, got no rebound. With a dead car (a squirrel had a baby in my engine. Mama chewed the hell out of it. Baby is fine, long since flew the Ford-coop), I'm on foot everywhere, & many days I'm simply not well enough to go out anywhere. I can't even stand & wait for a bus. It's too taxing & stressful.
Waking up unrefreshed more & more, & Circadian getting back to how it was when I was sick with CFS. Start feeling almost normal around 10pm to 3am. The thing that makes me veer away from thinking this is a CFS revisit is I can THINK straight. My memory blows, but I can THINK. I can read, I can fill out forms, I don't get confused easily. How I feel now is miles away from how bad off I was in 2011-2012.
That said, lights & noise are such stress to my system. And I have to force an appetite. Things don't taste that good, & usually I love fruit but now it just tastes watery & cold, so what's the point. And I know I got over Covid, so this isn't LC (+ took serrapeptase, natto, etc.). I think it's just stress. My elderly neighbor lost her husband, didn't change her food intake at all, then almost overnight dropped 35 pounds.
Last, if anyone made it this far (what a trooper
, have a bouquet 
), my 63 year old brother up in Canada has intestinal problems no doctor can suss out. He keeps getting blockages & operations. He was close to septic the first time he got surgery. They took out a lot of his colon or intestines or whatever that all is called. He lives healthy, no drugs, etc., so please, if anyone has any idea what it might be, or why a competent doctor can't determine what is wrong nor stop it from recurring. Thank you!
Hopefully I'll be back next Summer as always, but if I'm not, you can do the math. I hope people are hanging in there & finding comfort & peace any way you can. At least with Covid, the world learned about ME/CFS at last. Holy crap it took long enough. Now for A CURE.
Not doing so hot. No idea what's wrong, but I'm down to 100 pounds at 5'5 & 1/2.
I'm shaking uncontrollably in my upper torso, head, & neck though my hands are fairly even, & the shaking comes on 5 or 6 times a day, like if I'm standing at the kitchen sink after I wake up, I look like a wet Chihuahua. It's not terribly bad, but noticeable enough to be embarrassed about it in public, & people comment. I can't take photos anymore unless I rest the camera on a surface.
This might be what's called "Essential Tremor." I think I remember my Dad's mother used to shake her head. She was in her 70s, though. I'm 61, though I read it often attacks those 60+. It is what it is. With zero cash & no health insurance, in other words, as a typical American, there's no a lot I can do but watch & wait. My blood panel a year ago was fine. Also did the poop sample & all came up roses.
Having whittled down to a hundred, for no apparent reason, I can't help but feel like the Reaper's is on my tail. I eat excellent, nutritious vegan food, grow some of it myself, & cook from scratch most meals. I've deliberately gone out of my way to stuff my thin face with moronic food like frozen tarts, cookies, nutritional shakes, vitamin packets, anything & everything as caloric as I can get it.
Anyway, I'm overly physically active looking after feral cats & gardening & it's been a stupidly stressful year filled with several deaths, job losses, a still-dead car, housing insecurity, dental drama, & a very difficult 87 year old Narcissist for a mother who just lost her partner.
Also, Covid finally, in November, '22. Sick for 3 weeks. Took Paxlovid, got no rebound. With a dead car (a squirrel had a baby in my engine. Mama chewed the hell out of it. Baby is fine, long since flew the Ford-coop), I'm on foot everywhere, & many days I'm simply not well enough to go out anywhere. I can't even stand & wait for a bus. It's too taxing & stressful.
Waking up unrefreshed more & more, & Circadian getting back to how it was when I was sick with CFS. Start feeling almost normal around 10pm to 3am. The thing that makes me veer away from thinking this is a CFS revisit is I can THINK straight. My memory blows, but I can THINK. I can read, I can fill out forms, I don't get confused easily. How I feel now is miles away from how bad off I was in 2011-2012.
That said, lights & noise are such stress to my system. And I have to force an appetite. Things don't taste that good, & usually I love fruit but now it just tastes watery & cold, so what's the point. And I know I got over Covid, so this isn't LC (+ took serrapeptase, natto, etc.). I think it's just stress. My elderly neighbor lost her husband, didn't change her food intake at all, then almost overnight dropped 35 pounds.
Last, if anyone made it this far (what a trooper
, have a bouquet ), my 63 year old brother up in Canada has intestinal problems no doctor can suss out. He keeps getting blockages & operations. He was close to septic the first time he got surgery. They took out a lot of his colon or intestines or whatever that all is called. He lives healthy, no drugs, etc., so please, if anyone has any idea what it might be, or why a competent doctor can't determine what is wrong nor stop it from recurring. Thank you!Hopefully I'll be back next Summer as always, but if I'm not, you can do the math. I hope people are hanging in there & finding comfort & peace any way you can. At least with Covid, the world learned about ME/CFS at last. Holy crap it took long enough. Now for A CURE.
, & pretty much nothing has changed except less sensitivity to light. 5'4 I figured out, after measuring for first time in a long time, so aging is kicking in. Best hours remain late night into the next day, each night a struggle to get to bed because I finally start feeling normal, it's quiet out, all that. Whether or not EBV got reactivated, I have no idea, but blood tests doctor wanted to do all came back within range, as did pee test. He wants to do further testing which I'm so not up for, so won't be partaking in unless I'm at death's door. Even then, I'm not up for intervention I don't think. After my ME/CFS experience I simply have zero faith in anything medical, & even just *thinking about it* can put me in a vitriolic rage.
. It's a methylated multivitamin by a brand called "Power by Naturals." Vegan, without Iron. You take just one per day. I'll take a photo of ingredients & hopefully it will attach to this post.
unless you're interested in staying awake all night. It has a subtle but powerful effect I can't describe, but I know it's really helping. I have more stamina. I'm up to almost 105lbs. I have zero clue what's contained in this that's being beneficial, or if my body was lacking one or more nutrients. I doubt that, as I have an excellent diet, though I'll admit I don't get enough food in. And I don't know why just a little powder in these gel caps can have such an effect, but who cares, it does. It's likely tied to the gene mutation why it's helping.
