I appreciate you internet person! And yes I do feel bad in general to begin with physically and situation wise in other ways unrelated in my life. There is a lot of actual sadness to go around. Definitely snowballs. It actually is easier to just talk to a stranger, I don't have much family left around and don't see too many people even out daily. The state of the world right now is also starting to really get to me, almost like being on a small island already but it's slowly closing in more. Every time I even load up youtube without looking for it besides what I enjoy that I try to keep on my feed there's something new bad happening almost every day it seems. Yes I have tried internally screaming a lot and do, kinda helps in the moment when I'm in a stressful situation and can't just leave.
But this Summer I have gotten a lot of progress with my condition though and though I did also burn through most of it finding stuff out the future knowing what I'm do now and how to navigate things gives me more positivity. I go back to work in a bit over a week now and now I gotta be ready to more smoothly tackle it again but I think I'm ready for the rush to next Summer again where hopefully less will go wrong.
You are welcome.
The changing world is all around us ,
Some changes are Good some are not! Or that is how it appears to me.
I dont really watch news its basically one group showing something good and another group showing the exactly same thing but in a negative form.
I view utube as another form of intertainment some people are honest and some people play our heart strings to make a buck !
I like the audio books on different things, my lack of focus doesnt allow me to read any more.
I do look at my favorite utube shows
And they are always non political and upbeat! No doom and gloom stuff at all.
Thier are also Great funny jokes and stories, laughter always helps me a lot, good cries help me sometimes and sometimes they dont!
Dont get all stressed about work if you can.
I know you will do Great ! And it could help you feel better by being focused
On what you do.
I dont have any Pearls of Wisdom for you.
I only offer what help I can.
Please update us on how work goes.
And post all you want to here.