@ttt ..sorry i was still typing.....
I spent about four years, dealing with this in a manner that involved: do not seek the cause of your misfortune. An exercise in personal alchemy.
During that four years, I pushed, hoped I'd survive. I used alot of sick leave for rest breaks, modified work duties, cut back on meetings, but had to keep working.
So: in fact I needed to attend to the cause of my misfortune.
during that time, some headway out there was made: in the name, the diagonoses, managing this, and LDN appeared. So finding LDN was like a gift at the time. I had no idea: something could help like that. And it really did.
So I work on visualiizing my healing, I talk to my red blood cells and set intentions for them, encourage the gut critters to Shape up. Modified some other protocols and they became more effective.
So in my mind, there is a type of balance: wherein we know we have a challenge, and we rise to that challenge and do our best, but also know that we have great personal power to affect: our minds, body and spiritual attitude.