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Hi!
I'm planning on collecting genes that are related to suffering prolonged or permanent brain,liver etc. damage from previous SSRI use.
Don't want to go into too much details,some info about me:
23 years old male,first used SSRIs at age 17 due to bullying and traumas after traumas.
Been on Paxil (called Rexetin where I live) and 2 other ones that I don't even remember because I suffered amnesia.Those 3 years I've been poisoning myself with the drugs have been erased from my memory.
There were several symptoms like bruxism that went on for 6+ months and later on caused the back of my tooth to break in half.
There are persistant symptoms like ED,inability to concentrate,depersonalization,derealization.
Basically that feeling you get when the summer breeze caresses your skin or when something exciting is happening to you and you get shivers,whole body electric sensation is gone for years now.
In 2011 April I was fed up with feeling like a zombie with no energy and decided to quit cold turkey from 10 mgs.
I feel like I'm in a video game with the adequate blunted emotions and cannot complish simple tasks that I've used to be able to.I've lost the charming person and character that I was before and got a more serious workaholic,perfectionist,researching one to find answers to this misery.
This wouldn't be a problem if I could get rid of the less desirable side effects.
My symptoms range from PSSD,POIS,blunted emotions,paranoia,racing thoughts,delusional thinking,Alzheimer's like memory,chronic fatigue,weight gain on waist-stomach-face and developing a feminime figure,lack of motivation and most importantly I do think that my serotonin gets downregulated too quickly and I need to find alternative ways to resensitize the 5HT receptors.
In layman's term I give you an example: this means that I don't enjoy my favorite songs I used to listen over and over again,the way I did.
I need to find newer and newer things to stimulate my brain.
My serotonin levels get so low that if I don't listen to music my vision gets blurry,my muscles get rigid and I can't get up from the chair.But if I do,then my vision clears up and I get a burst of energy to even do hand stands.This only lasts for a few minutes and I get extremely tired due to weak adrenals.
So in short this is what SSRIs did to me and I never imagined 2 years ago that after discontinuation my life will never be the same,infact I've never got rid of any symptoms associated with these poisons.
....The past month I've tried to study for my exam and my brain does not agree with me.I have to stop in the middle of a sentence due to forgetting what I wanted to say.I just wish someone would understand me and wouldn't label me lazy or unmotivated.
My theories are the following:
- There are certain people who are genetically predisposed to permanent physical brain changes despite time and dosage from taking SSRIs.
- The toxins get stored in the body fat but SSRIs can cause you to develop hypothyroid,hypogonadism etc. so you will have no chance to lose that weight and not only because of them but because ;
- It damages the liver. I do think these drugs cause liver damage and inability to detoxify the neurotoxins.Just need to hear stories from other people who have their livers tested prior to use and afterwards.
- Most importantly,you born with faulty genes that are just waiting to be expressed as soon as you pop that bad boy the first time.
I wrote this all in frustration and hope that if you people help me find genes associated with this then we can defeat this monster and help fellow sufferers to beat prolonged SSRI discontinuation syndrome.
My first candidate would be the one that is also associated with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
It's called RORA and you can find it on your 23andme.I'm homozygous for it.
Thanks for reading.
Istvan
I'm planning on collecting genes that are related to suffering prolonged or permanent brain,liver etc. damage from previous SSRI use.
Don't want to go into too much details,some info about me:
23 years old male,first used SSRIs at age 17 due to bullying and traumas after traumas.
Been on Paxil (called Rexetin where I live) and 2 other ones that I don't even remember because I suffered amnesia.Those 3 years I've been poisoning myself with the drugs have been erased from my memory.
There were several symptoms like bruxism that went on for 6+ months and later on caused the back of my tooth to break in half.
There are persistant symptoms like ED,inability to concentrate,depersonalization,derealization.
Basically that feeling you get when the summer breeze caresses your skin or when something exciting is happening to you and you get shivers,whole body electric sensation is gone for years now.
In 2011 April I was fed up with feeling like a zombie with no energy and decided to quit cold turkey from 10 mgs.
I feel like I'm in a video game with the adequate blunted emotions and cannot complish simple tasks that I've used to be able to.I've lost the charming person and character that I was before and got a more serious workaholic,perfectionist,researching one to find answers to this misery.
This wouldn't be a problem if I could get rid of the less desirable side effects.
My symptoms range from PSSD,POIS,blunted emotions,paranoia,racing thoughts,delusional thinking,Alzheimer's like memory,chronic fatigue,weight gain on waist-stomach-face and developing a feminime figure,lack of motivation and most importantly I do think that my serotonin gets downregulated too quickly and I need to find alternative ways to resensitize the 5HT receptors.
In layman's term I give you an example: this means that I don't enjoy my favorite songs I used to listen over and over again,the way I did.
I need to find newer and newer things to stimulate my brain.
My serotonin levels get so low that if I don't listen to music my vision gets blurry,my muscles get rigid and I can't get up from the chair.But if I do,then my vision clears up and I get a burst of energy to even do hand stands.This only lasts for a few minutes and I get extremely tired due to weak adrenals.
So in short this is what SSRIs did to me and I never imagined 2 years ago that after discontinuation my life will never be the same,infact I've never got rid of any symptoms associated with these poisons.
....The past month I've tried to study for my exam and my brain does not agree with me.I have to stop in the middle of a sentence due to forgetting what I wanted to say.I just wish someone would understand me and wouldn't label me lazy or unmotivated.
My theories are the following:
- There are certain people who are genetically predisposed to permanent physical brain changes despite time and dosage from taking SSRIs.
- The toxins get stored in the body fat but SSRIs can cause you to develop hypothyroid,hypogonadism etc. so you will have no chance to lose that weight and not only because of them but because ;
- It damages the liver. I do think these drugs cause liver damage and inability to detoxify the neurotoxins.Just need to hear stories from other people who have their livers tested prior to use and afterwards.
- Most importantly,you born with faulty genes that are just waiting to be expressed as soon as you pop that bad boy the first time.
I wrote this all in frustration and hope that if you people help me find genes associated with this then we can defeat this monster and help fellow sufferers to beat prolonged SSRI discontinuation syndrome.
My first candidate would be the one that is also associated with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
It's called RORA and you can find it on your 23andme.I'm homozygous for it.
Thanks for reading.
Istvan