@hikinglo - Thank you for sharing your story. Now that 9 more months have passed since you posted this, how are you doing now? I hope you're doing better.
I started tapering off .75 xanax very slowly in Oct, and am only 1/3 of the way there. I'm doing no more than 5-10% cuts every two weeks. If all goes well, I hope to be off by July or August. I was on xanax for 21 years but have had ME/CFS for 33. I too am hoping my "veteran" ME/CFS status will help prepare me for this since I'm already home-bound and feeling lousy most of the time anyway.
If you could do it over, would you taper slower? Any suggestions would be helpful.
@2Cor.12:19 Thank you. 30 and 21 years - wow, you have me beat! Here's to hoping you weather your taper well!
Yes, in hindsight I think I could have gone slower and still probably distinguished between w/d & ME, which was one of my goals. I did slow down in the final month, when symptoms were snowballing to unbearable.
Let's see... 9 months since I posted this (and forgot that I did)... well, cognition has improved albeit minimally. I'll take what I can get! Ups and downs, not not much energy after ADLs to keep up with some speech, math and other brain exercises. For the first 2 years (including taper and post-withdrawal, starting Jan 2017), the w/d symptoms dominated. Like having a few hundred volts plugged into my upper spine, (full symptom list far too long to describe....)
This past year, post w/d symptoms began to subside a little, enough to where I notice the ME symptoms more again. But now I know my ME is much worse than before taking clonazepam. I look back to the things I was able to do even with moderate-severe ME and curse this dang benzo! Can't say the crossover / overlap of post w/d & ME symptoms is very pleasant, hah! (Sense of humor is my main survival mechanism.) I have no doubt the wear and tear of the hyperstimulation of the relentless glutamate flood that I still feel in my bones - just to a lesser degree now - is akin to doing continuous exercise with ME.
I did have a 'setback' from this August through early November this year (there is a good article I'm thinking of on Setbacks somewhere in the benzo info community). The setback was different from the 'waves' and 'windows' described in the Ashton Manual. It was like being pretty suddenly thrown back about 1 year in this post benzo healing process. (I describe it as being sprayed with a non-lethal dose of Raid. Nothing short of acute neurotoxicity.) But just like the writer of the article I'm recalling, the severe symptoms lasted about 10 weeks rather than 10 months. I'm back on what feels like a healing track, albeit a little more frazzled for the experience.
So, yeah, being a veteran pwME has helped me weather this. Especially with no support and not much energy left to even look at forums like Phoenix or BenzoBuddies.
It sounds to me like you are doing the right thing. My only suggestions would be what you probably already know - slow your taper if the symptoms become unbearable, expect poor sleep, and if you have an understanding doctor and can afford the co-pays, take advantage of him/her. If you have good support (I don't - been doing this virtually pretty isolated), also take advantage of that. I keep a symptom journal. I did find a pattern of 'waves' and 'windows', with no apparent trigger. I did find things that reliably intensify my symptoms, and work on building a tolerance now.
I sincerely wish you the best, and am sorry you have to go through this too. I'm hoping you're one of the ones that gets through it fairly unscathed. Feel free to update your progress any time. I wrote a later post about this on this forum (1 of about 3 posts I've been able to follow through in 3 years here or on benzobuddies) - too fried after typing and editing this one to find it and link here.