Aww, thanks GG, for your concern. So kind of you to 'watch my back' as well, but I've had a lot of practice with public speaking and I'm quite used to it, and the talk is probably not going to be very long. I think if I'm wheeled in from the parking lot and I sit while speaking I will be fine. I have medication I can take (only occasionally) for OI, so as long as my pain is under reasonable control I can do it. I perform weddings once in a while with my "public speaking" health protocol: hydrate, increase salt, bathe the night before and get everything ready instead of waiting till the day of, wear comfortable clothing and shoes, take OI meds, control pain, have a driver, eat lightly, prepare notes word for word in large print in case of brain fog or blurred vision, bring all emergency meds, and so on.
And quite frankly, I would do this if I had to crawl through broken glass. This needs to happen for the good of the ME/CFS community here, and who knows where the people who hear this talk will end up someday? And besides, I really want to give my doctor the opportunity to redeem himself in the hopes of having a decent relationship with him in the future, which I think we can all agree is vital for us.
Oh yes, that reminds me, I left a part out of my post about the doctor visit. The doctor wanted me to get a flu shot immediately if not sooner. I told him that I was worried it would cause a flare and that it could shoot my viral load up, and I asked if I could take it in two divided doses a month apart. So we were discussing my immune system, and I couldn't stop myself from mentioning that I can often tell when my immune system is down, like it was just before my gallbladder surgery. I said, "I
knew my immune system was in a ditch and I
knew I was going to get a post-operative infection and I
tried to prevent it, but I ended up with a very dangerous infection anyway. I really wish something could have been done to prevent that." He looked up and stroked his chin as if he were trying to remember something and then it came to him. It was obvious by the look on his face that he remembered that I had called about those concerns and he responded by basically just patting my head as if I were a whiney little child. He didn't say anything about it specifically but it was clear to me as well as my husband that he just didn't know
what to say to that. He just kind of moved on into what he thought was the solution and started talking again about getting me in to the ID guy.
In spite of what it could cost me personally by doing the CME talk, the hope of helping to spare maybe just one PWC from being treated like a whiney child on just one occasion outweighs whatever risk of setback there might be to me. I would welcome your prayers or positive energy or whatever applies.:innocent1:

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