Too Exhausted to go to Doctors

[OkRadLakPok]

About a year ago I decided I wasn;t going to Drs anymore. In fact, I walked right out and had to change back into my clothes
I had a wreck in Jan and had to go, but it was hard and I stopped.
I also had a lump on my breast that they said had to be re-evaluated.
The only time I went was when I over exerted myself and had to because I could not move my arms
That went well.

So how do you psych yourselves up to go? I am in a lot of pain and can't. Going just once always leads to another and another..............it never stops. What if they find something? THen you are in it more and more.

I am utterly exhausted not just physically, but psychlogically . I can't hardly think of going to another D.r

 

[taniaaust1]

its something which really has to be done, one doesnt have a choice if one can get there.

I find though its like you said, one thing leads to another thing and then another thing and before you know it you are seeing 7-9 different specialists for various issues found. Then one tries to tone it down and just deal with one thing at a time as its all one can cope with.

Issue with this illness is the doctors and ones health is like everything else with this illness, one cant seem to keep up with what needs doing.

The thing is with now not being able to go any more, I know Im developing even more complications and instead of possibly preventing future things (things specialists were previously working with me to stop getting worst).. its all just going to make it in long run worst cause everything has been left

 

[OkRadLakPok]

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The thing is with now not being able to go any more, I know Im developing even more complications and instead of possibly preventing future things (things specialists were previously working with me to stop getting worst).. its all just going to make it in long run worst cause everything has been left[/QUOTE]

Exactly. And I think I a accepting that. It has hit me after 35 years sick, that there are worse things that just letting go. When I was 20 the fight was worth it. I AM fighting now, because I have family, but the push and focus to do so is gone. Now the fight consists of not losing my mind, of being able to be decent and kind, of basically not ending my life. That is the fight now.