It's as if I'm a slave to the primal regions of my brain.
Maybe it´s just these regions which are out of order??
I'm increasingly realizing that my cognitive limitations are greatly hindering any chance of recovery/improvement.
This I have also big problems with. How to remember things and how to keep the line. Often I have problems to logically put things together, I cannnot cut through.
A trick might be to think all things uncertain, and you might develope some sense for what might be more important and what less.
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Having said both, I am on my way:
-- Probably by good luck I can influence my immunesystem (signature below). I don´t know my genetics, but looking at a relative there should be some predisposition.
-- I can help my inner brain structures esp by gaba
and taurin (currently only 250mg each), which gives always a push.
Here I use also metals found in chocolate, so
a bit of chocolate. Eating 9g or 18g or 36g of chocolat. I also use silver spoons in drinks (best even more homeopathic.) Chocolate contains: nickel, chromium, zinc, aluminium, all of the last three I have googled to be pronounced in one inner structure. Zinc (thalamus) and chromium (caudatus) I experience to be most important. (I must be careful with the combination zinc and tryptophan, tryptophan can be helpful too, but can be very very strange as well, maybe dangerous.)
With chocolate I think higher amounts might even be dangerous, because the effected actions might lead to more chaos. I also use a quarter drop of vinegar only, which would work in the accumbens (being an acid it would act on ASICs acid sensing ion channels which are high there).
-- Thanks to Fluge 2016 p3, f1 I also take lysine or methionine, best so far half an hour after a proteine meal.
So, that´s my wisdom, I am getting very slowly out of the misery. In more detail I have to say that the applications are often chaotic: sometimes this sequence feels better, sometimes that.
I don´t know how important the medicals are. I use a spoon of tomatoegreentea (organic) which diminishes acetylcholine (don´t know if it is safe), half a drop of ambroxol, and sometimes beer (alcohol plus hops, the last one is the only iNOS blocker that doesn´t get out of work in my case).
It took me two and a half year of disability to figure the thing out, after having found out my manganese issue rather by complete accident.
The story behind my illness then is: iNOS got high after two infections, and NO made the nerves especially in basal ganglia and thalamus ready "to learn" too much, eg caused much too high plasticity. (In addition my phantasy likes to reason that the learning/memory/plasticity mechansism would evolutionarily be the starting point for feeling sick, the chaos that might come about with too much synapse turnover.)
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My disability (because of my "suddenly visible" psychological problems (which I hadn´t had)) will end soon enough, a new challenge. A difficult improvement, I personally must beware of doctors, sadly. Best wishes!
I hope this is not a wild goose chase. Mainly I wanted to just encourage you and say hi, you're not alone, existing is not enough for me either. <3