Hi all, I am writing here in frustration. I feel like i have been through the wringer and back. My journey started in December 2013 when i miscarried with a child. I felt weird after the miscarriage and just put it down to hormones. Two months later the symptoms still hadn't gone away and i thought something was very wrong. I felt constantly spaced out and had weird light sensitivity to indoor lighting. Everything just looked a bit off. I started seeing a naturopathic doctor who thought i might have a yeast overgrowth issue. I went on a yeast protocol for a while and nothing got better. I was then put on some other naturopathic stuff for viruses etc and still nothing improved. She then started to think of other possibilities and suggested lyme disease. I didn't really know much about it but i didn't think that was what was going on with me. I knew all the classic symptoms that are portrayed and thought "Well i never had the rash so it can't be that, i had no clue back then." I also saw another family doctor who told me she thought i had a nasty sinus infection and put me on ceftin. After taking it i felt 10x worse. The spacey feeling was so much worse, i had severe anxiety, i felt like i was going to die. I started looking up ceftin and feeling worse as a side effect and hit a thousand articles about lyme and a herx reaction. I was starting to really think at this point i had lyme. I went to another doctor who i was told knows about lyme and she ran the western blot and cd57. The western blot was negative and the cd57 was 62. She told me people with chronic lyme usually have below 60 so she said she didn't think i had it and diagnosed me with fibromyalgia. I then went to see an LLMD about 5 hours away who i had heard good things about and he said clinically he thought it was lyme and did igenex testing. It came back positive. After that visit my husband and i separated and i had to move back with my parents and i couldn't see him anymore due to funds. When i got a little bit more on my feet i was recommended another LLMD doctor in another state who takes insurance so things may be more covered, and i got on his waiting list. The drive wasn't that far either so i felt very hopeful as i had heard very good things about him. 3 months after being on the waiting list the doctors office called back and said that he was canceling all patient appointments due to some health issues. I was devastated. I thought he was the only shine of hope i could have for getting better and relatively close, and i had waited so long. After talking with my parents i decided to go back to the previous LLMD who was out of pocket. My parents helped me with the costs seems i do not work currently. The first appointment went well. Second appointment i go back to discuss and talk about treatment and getting on antibiotics. My parents and i drive down last Monday and my appointment was Tuesday and i stay over night seems it is a bit of a drive and we didn't want to worry about driving there the day of my appointment. 2 hours after getting there i get a call to say my doctor has been taken to hospital and has canceled all his appointments for the next day so he won't be able to see me. The office then said he would be calling that week when he is well enough to do phone consultations. I never got a call. Monday just gone i called again to ask what was going on and they said he is still getting the list together and i will get a call as soon as he does, but a new patient in a forum i belong to said they called for a new appointment and were told they had to go on a waiting list as they were closing temporarily. I have symptoms now i didn't have a year ago, neurological ones that seem to be getting worse. I am living in fear for my health and i just don't know what to do. Whatever doctor i have tried to see an issue arises. Sometimes i wonder if i am even supposed to get better. I know people can't really offer much help, i guess i am just venting. I just want to find a good doctor to help me.